Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Pre-Op …..Gifts Please

Today is the day of the pre-op. I admit to being a little apprehensive. What they will be doing has been described as a new procedure. Dealing with this blockage has been passed over at least twice in the past as being too risky. I know that virtually every day huge advances are made in the world of medicine and I am sure some of those advances have greatly reduced the risk involved here.. I have been told it is a 4-5 hour procedure which means at this time next week I will be right in the middle of having it done. About 1/2 way to feeling a lot better.

I want to thank our dear blogging friend fairyfluttering for the suggestion I provide a mailing address so cards and well wishes could come flooding in from all over the world. She suggests being able to read all those loving messages of support would just have to help the healing process. I do admit that sounds wonderful and so heart warming. Be it justified or not, I am just not comfortable providing my home address out on the world wide web. I have no problem providing my address to friends, who knows maybe I am just being crazy.

I have come upwith a different idea that I know would be very heart warming to me. Many times over the course of the blog I have flat out asked for gifts and I am going to do that again now.

I have always held the thought of random acts of kindness close to my heart. What I am asking is that any and all that may read this actively look for the opportunity to do a random act of kindness and then act on that opportunity. The size of this act does not matter, big or small it all counts. For whom you do this act of kindness doesn’t matter. All that matters is that from the goodness contained within your heart you did somerthing to in some way help or make the live of another better or a little easier. Not something we have to do or are expected to do, not with the thought of any reward or recognition. Just because we can.

The gift to me will be having you write in and tell me about what your act was. It will not be seen as bragging or boasting or any such. It will be seen only as your gift to me. Plus, your actions when written here may provide ideas for others that may follow your lead.

Every once in a while I will receive a comment from some one describing themselves as a “lurker” (someone that reads but doesn’t write in). I am calling on you. I am calling on everyone, all my friends everyone.
Get your friends involved let’s make this world just rock with kindness

Pre-op, not reassuring

Dying Man’s Daily Journal

I just realized this is in fact post #1150, do I ever like to ramble. I think back and at post #1,000 I had intended to put up a post about the things I had learned from blogging. I look back through the unpublished draft posts I have saved and see I have actually started that post 3 different times. Have another go at it.. In no particular order other than as they come to mind.

If you have to live your entire life, every second of your life with one person would it not make your life a lot more pleasant, enjoyable if you at least liked that person. Imagine if every minute of every day you are just plain stuck with someone you are just not all that fond of or even dislike. Would that not make finding true happiness, contentment and joy more difficult in life. Well you are “stuck” with one person for every second of every day. That person is yourself and you yourself play a much bigger role in determining your own happiness than does anyone else. Happiness comes from within, searching for it externally is most often set to fail Think about that and let me know what you think.

As much as I seem to so often think it should the world DOES NOT revolve me or you. How often do we set ourselves up for some sort of hurt or disappointment when things in life donèt go the way we expect them to. Someone does not act in the way or manner that we are hoping or expecting them to. How often do we get upset by the actions of another having the thoughts: What is their problem don’t they know they should/shouldn’t……… and we get upset. We take it personally when others live own their lives, in their own way especially when that happens to somehow over lap into our own lives, possibly spoiling our own perfect view of how things should be.
A thought just hit me. I do believe God has a plan of all of us. Speaking for myself I do not know what that plan is. What I do know is what I would like that plan to be. Now let’s see who would know what is best for me? God or myself? Now is that a ridiculous question or what?

I am just starting to get on a role in my rambling way and need a break. My pillow is calling my name and telling me I need a nap

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Happy grandpa

Having a good weekend. Lynelle has come to town bringing grandchildren Seth and Sadie. I have an ongoing game with them. It is a hug stealing game. Now as with any game there are rules. They play as a team against poppa. The objective is to catch the other unawares to steal a hug. Bedroom and bathroom are “safe” zones. Plus no stealing when you are eating, we don’t want any choking or any such. Now Miss Sadie seems to be the offical score keeper and try as I might I am always well behind in the scoring. i have to chuckle as no matter what the score in the game says, I am the winner. (5 and 7 year old hugs are precious).
Shauna and Jake are coming into town this afternoon bringing precious little princess “Meeks” a 13 month old snuggle bunny. My two othere little princesses I hope to face time with. I am doing the grandpa happy dance and that is a sight to see.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – date is set

I am feeling pretty good. Still have some chest discomfort but nothing I can’t easily deal with. Have been told increased sweating can be a symptom, well let me tell you, I am sweating buckets, so much so my hair is wet to the touch.

it seems I have been going every second day for blood work. Monitoring mr INR levels (thickness and clotting levels in the blood). My levels seem to be jumping around either too high or to low. Medication dosage changes and it will get sorted out.

Have had a couple of tentative dates for the up coming procedure, June 24th was set. The hospital called yesterday and it has been moved up to May 28 th. Really looking forward to getting this behind me.
A question was posted in a recent comment. Why don’t they just do the procedure now, why the wait? Good question. I see our Canadian medical system as being wonderful, it has kept me alive. It is a fantastic system and it is FREE of all charge to Canadians. Top notch, quality care and it is free of charge, now you can’t beat that.
OK, one possible short fall. There are waiting lists/times for most specialized procedures. To be having this procedure with in the next 2 weeks as it is. I am just so grateful

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Happy Mother’s Day

Happy Mother’s Day to all the wonderful Ladies that so deserve to be honoured on this special day set aside for you.
Being a mother, I am aware can often seem to be an endless and often thankless job. It some how seems sad that we need a date on the calendar to remind us to thank and honor those that have given so selflessly of themselves to you this day is dedicated.
I encourage all mothers as I will fathers in their turn to reflect back on their parenting over this past year. This is a special day on which appreciation should flow in both directions.
Happy Mother’s Day.

Get ready for it…… Are you ready for it. Here comes another “according to Bill” …. The way I see it based on the way I see the men around me and how they treat their wives. It is like EVERY is Mother’s Day. I can hardly wait to read the responses to that. Lol

Dying Man’s daily Journal

I am feeling better. I am still experiencing the chest discomfort but having a degree of understanding of its cause and that it is not heart attack related is a great relief. Peace of mind is a wonderful thing. Does it make sense to say while the degree of discomfort is the same it is some how not as bothersome.
I am always so appreciative of all the comments left for me, be assured I do read each and everyone of them. I am so far behind in replying I know I can never catch up in responding to each individually as I often try. Please know each is read and appreciated.

Dying Man’s daily Journal – To Hospital again

Spent yesterday in the hospital. Previous 3 days hadn’t been feeling so spry with a lot chest discomfort, throwing up and profuse sweating. Over all I wasn’t feeling too bad just no well. Well that is until the nausea would hit. It just seemed to come out of no where. That feeling seemed to only last for a few minutes and then disappeared as suddenly as it came. I could at least tell it was heart related as a couple a sprays of the nitro under the tongue would take care of the chest discomfort. The issue was it took care of it for an hour or two and then kept coming back. I really didn’t think I was having a heart attack as the chest discomfort was different, it was more like a heavy squeezing as opposed to the pain I have experienced in the past.
The first day all of this was going on Vi suggested the hospital, day 2 she strongly suggested the hospital, day 3 she insisted. When day 4 started out the same way she presented me with a choice. Either she drives me to the hospital NOW or she would call the ambulance NOW. (Grumble, grumble bossy women, lol).
My arrival at the emergency department created quit a stir. I had doctors and nurses all over me. Within a couple of hours I was having an emergency angiogram done.
It was determined it was not a heart attack. Now this is I understand it. We know there is a 100% blockage of one of the major arteries. We already know there are smaller arteries, delivering blood around that blockage and obviously enough to keep me going. That doesn’t mean those little arteries are rerouting all of the blood that arrives at that spot. In simple terms I can understand, extra blood arrives there at that spot creating a bit of a bottle neck. Not enough to be medically serious but enough to cause the discomfort.
I do thank all for the wonderful comments being left for me. I do read and treasure each one. I am feeling better and do plan on blogging much more frequently, God bless to all.