December 10, 2013
Just watching the news. Yesterday, the temp. here in Winnipeg factoring in the wind was a balmy -43. Temperatures like that are a little brisk. No, temperatures like that are damn cold.
the news story I just watched was on how, us Winnipegers don’t let anything get in the way of us enjoying the outdoors. The news article showed clips of families out and about going for walks. Kids playing in the snow………
I am obviously not in the hearty Canadian category. We are hiding in the house.
December 7, 2013
I often see comments left by those struggling with the idea of visiting a terminally ill person. It may be struggling with the thought of going or looking for suggestions on what to say during such a visit.
I have said many times I am not a doctor, nor therapist, I am just sharing my thoughts from my own experience and my thoughts which most certainly not apply to everyone. Every situation is unique as every individual is. These are my thoughts as they apply to me.
Firstly, should you call/visit. My answer to that would be a big YES. Geography may make a visit impossible but I think it is fair to assume most have access to a telephone. Recently I have written of the sad passing of my cousin Joe. I spoke to his wife Ev, she spoke of how the telephone was constantly ringing off the hook. She said it was wonderful as it showed how much people cared. I think that is wonderful of all that are showing that caring.
From that I am going to take it one step further. If calling or visiting can show how much you care. Could not the same be felt if you do not call. Now I know I am over simplifying and maybe over stating it, or am I. Calling shows how much you care, not calling shows how much you care. A terminal patient is aware you know of their condition. If they don’t even get a call, what are they left to think? Do you think they could get the impression they are not important enough to you to even warrant a simple phone call. Now think about that. Yeah, yeah, I know hundreds of excuses will instantly pop to mind. Try to think of it from the patients point of view.
What to say or talk about. For me that is easy. I am still the same person I was before the doctors came up with their prognosis. My likes and dislikes are the same, I enjoy the same things. Talk as we “normally” would. Reminiscing is always good, take a trip down memory lane. If you want to ask about my health, go ahead and I will answer your questions. I live and breathe all of that on a daily basis. A pleasant distraction is much more appreciated
December 1, 2013
I am happy to be back. I have missed being here with my blogging friends.
a realization has hit me. Depending on where you are in your life circumstances or your life situation will largely determine your feelings or reactions to the little bumps you may hit on the highway of life. For me this past month the ride has been a little bumpy. Yeah, it may have thrown me off stride a little but nothing compared to the panic it would have caused in years gone by, not even close. I suppose I am just trying to say how adaptable we are. We can adapt our thinking to the reality of our own situation, with this “adapted” thinking comes our new or different reactions. I suppose that could be a positive or a negative.
Had a big plan at the beginning of the month. My dear cousin Joe passed very recently, prostate cancer took him. His son also Joe decided to rally some of the family to raise money for the fight against this terrible disease. It is Movember, November is a month can quit standing as close to the razor. Solicit donations in turn for which we grow a moustache. Well I already had the moustache so decided to go for the full beard, then at the end of the month have Vi “style” it. Have all sorts of designs cut into it as it grew down from the moustache. I was sure it would be a new style or tend setter.
Joe set up a team called the Howdle boys on the Movember web site. I sighed up for the team.
From this experience I learned 2 things. First, back years ago I actually sported a short well trimmed beard. It came off about 15 years ago. It was dark brown with a reddish hue to it. It grows out now and it is GRAY. I don’t know what happened to it.
Secondly, I learned extra facial hair and the CPAP breathing machine don’t necessarily go together that well and it had to come off early.
Have had appointments with both the heart failure clinic and neurologist. Each are very good. Each specialize in their own parts of the body. It seems as each specialty prescribes the best medications for my condition, they may not always have the best possible side effects for the other specialty. More tests up coming and will get sorted out
November 16, 2013
Yesterday, things didn’t go so well at the gym. I have been feeling really go about going. The first few visits I was pretty cautious about how much I exerted, how hard I pushed myself. Gradually, I experimented pushing myself harder and faster. Now by that I mean harder and faster by my standards.
The Wellness Centre is an excellent facility an indoor track and dozens of various pieces of exercise equipment. The indoor track is, I suppose quite small. On the inside walking lane one lap is about 200 steps. When I first started I could only make it about 1/2 a lap or about 100 steps. After a few trips to the gym I started to think this is silly. If I just dig down and just push on, I can make an entire lap, I mean it is only another 100 steps. I see now became a pattern, continually digging down pushing harder and harder. I pushed up to 3 laps after which I was a gasping, panting sweaty mess.
Yesterday, it all caught up to me. I got a stabbing chest pain that stopped me in my tracks. Thankfully, I was but feet from a rest stop. I always carry my nitro spray with me, plus I wear a nitro patch. I gave myself the spray under the tongue which did dull the pain. Procedure is with the pain you give yourself a spray under the tongue right away. If the pain isn’t gone in 5 minutes a second shot under the tongue. If required a 3rd shot again 5 minutes later while you are calling the ambulance. OK, the pain is dulled but definitely not gone. It is getting close to the time for the second spray. I realize I am in a medical facility attached to a hospital, maybe I should tell someone what is going on. Wow, talk about response time, I had a nurse at my side in maybe 30 seconds. Long story short. I took that second shot of nitro and everything settled down. I was banned from the track for the day, sent home to rest. That I did got in one of my 6 hour naps.
As it turned out it was a nothing event but I am glad it happened. In my 15 or 20 minutes of recovery time I had the chance to really talk to the nurse. Doing that extra pushing is not always a good thing especially if you are a heart patient. I have less than 60% of a functioning heart! the medications I am on (one to control my heart rate, left by itself it seems to speed up even up into the 200 beats per minute) controls my heart rate so that no matter what it will not beat faster than somewhere in the 80′s. For me pushing it should not go beyond what would be considered low to moderate for others. Taking a few days off but I will be back.