I don’t know how many time I have said we have to focus on the big picture of our lives and not let ourselves be overwhelmed by the circumstances of the moment. I know that, yet while dealing with the circumstances of the moment, the big picture suddenly doesn’t seem to really matter all that much.
I am tired that really worn out kind of tired other than that physically I a feeling OK, my norm. My moral has taken a dip, I am struggling to keep the spirits up. It just seems there is so much going on around me.
I seem to have conflicting emotions, it is really hard to put into words. For years now I have been dealing with with my heart issues. Countless doctors have talked about shortened life expectancy only a couple of them have actually uses the dying word. Family doc even has referred to me as his miracle patient, no matter what comes my way, some how I just keep going. This is something I am so very grateful for but am a loss to explain the how or why.
Back when I first heard the dying words, it was a struggle but I was able to come to terms with it. With that acceptance I suppose came the thought that among family and friends etc. I would likely be the next to go. Yet, somehow in that time period 4 others that I know of of the same age range have passed.
I ask for prayers please. My brother Robin faces and deals with an extremely serious heart condition. My cousin Joe, his mystery ailment has been identified as cancer and Lon time friend Don. Don had a brain tumour removed several years back. Now several tumours have returned
I am just laying here feeling very restless, agitated, worried. It really has become so very obvious to me that for me anyway it is much easier being the patient than it is to be the worried family member.
This morning I took my brother too the same unit of the same hospital I was in just a couple of months ago. He was even there for same procedure. My procedure ended with them ultimately not being able to do anything. His procedure ended with them ultimately not being able to do anything.
It is really nice having my brother Robin in town visiting for a few days. It is unfortunate that the circumstances of his visit are not what I would have hoped for. Robin is facing his own serious heart issues.
through various tests and what not the doctors have determined he requires open heart surgery to replace one of the valves in his heart. In the past he has had 2 heart attacks. This same testing done by the doctors has shown that the damage to the heart muscle is more extensive than previously thought. The valve that needs replacing is amid this damaged tissue.
The angiogram will allow the doctors to decide if the open heart surgery is a viable option
It is both a happy, excited and proud time in the family. Vi is so both so happy and proud she has left town for a few days to go and join in a family celebration. What is the celebration for?
Today are the graduation ceremonies as daughter Lynelle graduates from University. Congratulations Lynelle, I am/we all are very proud of you. Know if circumstances were different I would be there in person to celebrate and acknowledge your accomplishment.
A big pat on the back and thank you to Jason (lynelle’s hubby). Your continued support and encouragement well have made this possible.
Lynelle was not your typical university student. Now a gentleman would never reveal a ladies age, let’s just say Lynelle is “several” years older than that you would consider of the typical student, she went back to school after already having established a career.
Lynelle was a commercial pilot. As fate would have she met the dashing Jason and love was in the air. Wedding bells rang, two wonderful children later she gave up taking to the sky.
The sound of the school bell caught her ear. What started as a couple of evening correspondence courses turned to a full time course load all leading to today.
Lynelle, I am proud of you
I ask please for prayers for my cousin Joe. I did ask for prayers for Joe several weeks ago and ask they please continue. It is something like 2 months ago that Joe first became ill.
Numerous doctors appointments, tests and hospital stays and the doctors are unable to come up with a diagnosis. I understand the cancer word is being thrown around although tests have not confirmed it. If a diagnosis could be made then at least a proper treatment plan could be started. Please
I was out on the front step this morning. It is just beautiful, normal spring like weather has finally arrived. I just love the sound of dozens of birds singing and that sound seemingly coming at you from every direction.
We live well into a major city but here we have more squirrels and rabbits than I ever saw living in rural areas. I suppose it is because they don’t have the same natural preditors here as they would in the wild. Just look around and there is such beauty everywhere. I love the color of the new leaves a much lighter shade of green than that to which they will soon become.
I realize one of the life lessons I really need to focus on is appreciation. Appreciation off all of the true blessings I have in my life. I KNOW I am a very blessed man, a very lucky man.
Some how it seems to be so easy to loose sight of the big picture and focus instead on the immediate surroundings or situation. Worrying about tomorrow only robs me of today. I don’t have enough today’s to allow that to happen. Think about it, NONE OF US, do. In our hearts we all know this, yet still allow it to happen, why?
I want to really LIVE every moment I have left. For me attitude is key. I have prayed asking for God’s will to be done in my life. Parts of me are content with that. My will keeps getting in the way. MY will is to live is to live into my 90’s and then die after being shot in the back by a jealous husband. That is a really big LOL.
I am going live and enjoy every moment I can right up until our Heavenly Father nudges me right up to the doorway to the other side. At that point and only at that point will very willingly step right though with no hesitation or concern. How are you living your life?