Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all my wonderful blogging friends.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – What I have learned from blogging

Well, I am now 60 years old and qualify for a lot of seniors discounts, hum, hadn’t thought of that. Hey if I can get a discount on anything well I am all for that. I think it is generally assumed that with advancing years comes grerater wisdom, I think I must have been short changed on that one.

It is very seldom that I check the blog stats anymore, I not sure why but I did check them out a few days back. I was shocked to see it is zooming in on 400,000 hits. I was equally surprised to see there is now a map on the site and a list of the countries readers are from and you are from all over the world. I am thrilled and honored and am left speechless.

There is something well, I have always known but this experience has confirmed it so much more strongly in my mind. The world is just full of wonderful, kind and loving people . Here through the blog I have been honored to meet many of you. Each and every person that has visited the blog has made their own contribution in their own unique way and I thank you all.

When I say people are people, I mean that with no exceptions. Nothing changes that be it skin color, religion/faith, shape of the eyes, sex, culture……..

At any time (here comes a Bill statistic) about 90% of the populations are just regular good, honest caring and hard working people, doing their best to get through their day. About 5% are what I call Earth Angels, those that are willing to step up, go the extra mile to help another. I believe God delivers them to be at a particular time and place to do his work.

That leaves the remaining 5% with are just plain old jerks. These are the ones that we see, read about and hear about every day. Sadly the ones that seem to draw the most attention. They draw our attention so much so that often that we forget that other 95% being the vast majority of people.

We also often forget that the dividing lines between these groups is not carved in stone. Depending on the day, the situation or circumstance we regularly shift from one group to another. YES, that means that YOU (and I) have in the past and will in the future again find ourselves in that jerk group. It is oh so easy to see in others but so much harder in ourselves. I challenge you to sit back and honestly think about that.

Never forget the world IS FULL of wonderful people

Years ago right here on the blog I set up what I called a club, welcoming all to join. If there is anything about this blog that I would hope would continue and florish, this would be it. Please scroll back to the top of the page. Listed across the top you will see the names of other pages I have started. Please click on the one titled “Spirit within me”. Please read what it is about and join in.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – I am 60, how did all those years go by so fast

Wow, here I am I made it to 60. I am sort of in awe or something. In awe for 2 reasons I suppose, against the odds I am still here and then there is the I AM 60 how did that many years just speed by so quickly.

A thought has been “haunting” me. I can clearly remember back to when all of my medical issues began. One doctor told me I had 2 years if I was lucky. I think I was 52 or 53 at the time and I remember praying, “I am too young to die, please give me at least until I am 60.” Huh, and here I am having been granted that extra time. Somehow, I can’t help but be thinking I should have asked for at least 65.

This past couple of weeks have not been all that encouraging 3 out of 3. Now you would think that after dealing with all of this for the past years I would be expecting/accepting of the doctors words as I hear them. No, each time it seems to rock me a little bit sending my head into a bit of a tail spin. Thankfully I have reached the point where it seems to only take a day or 2 to get my mind back into focus.

Over the years some how my prayers have changed. Gone for desperately pleading for more time to praying that our Heavenly Father take me in his hands and that His will be done in all areas of my life. I mean what better place could I be and what better things could I hope for in my life.

That must sound like I am totally calm and serene and really for the most part I am but I do have MY MOMENTS

Dying Man’s Daily Journal -Prayer request

How do I describe life around here this past while interesting, stressful, different…..

A lot has happened over the past couple of months. I have written of Vi’s mum Nellie passing. Vi is struggling but is coping with the grieving process. I am trying  to be as supportive as I can. There have been some issues rise that I know are causing us both to struggle.

I suppose the mere name of the blog would indicate that things will be coming to an end. I have been seeing a lot of specialists and well what can I say? None are optimistic beyond the very short term. Neurologist told me based on his past years of experience, with the plaque crystallization in my neck I am but 2 or 3 weeks from a major stroke.
Stroke  clinic would only say it is very serious and that I could be expecting to see a lot of them in the next few weeks.

Yesterday, The family doctor not known for his bed side manner, flat out said I have advanced to the point that there is really nothing more will be done. If I had but anyone of my conditions things would be different. I do have the several things that could really end my life at any moment. Do you treat one knowing it well may all be for naught. What was hardest about that was that Vi was sitting right there hearing it all. She has enough on her plate to deal with without worrying about me.

Please prayers for Vi and my family

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – STROKE

Start with a question if I may. When I was out visiting Shauna, she signed on to the blog through google. Now below each of my postings there was some sort of a video attached. I check form my own computer and it is just not there. Does anyone else see it, if so please don’t click on it. I don’t know where it came from or what it is.

I have a lot to write about but just don’t seem to have the energy to do much of anything.

Back into all the check ups and tests with all the various medical specialists. I still have the headache and something is affecting my vision. There is something with my right eye. Seemingly out of no where my eye just clouds over so that I can see nothing but white, nothing else. That only lasts for about 10-15 seconds. That fades and then it is hard to describe. It is like if your TV looses its signal and there is just static. It takes about 10 or 15 minutes and that fades and the vision returns.

Have seen the doctors and with a CT scan and MRI and have determined I have crystalized plaque in the major arteries leading into my head. If i understand the doctor correctly they suspect little pieces of that crystal is breaking off, floating through the blood stream until lodging in the eye. Huh, now I have been preparing myself  for a heart attack or such but a stroke scares me. See a stroke specialist this afternoon and I guess we will see.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Grandpa happy dance

I am sure all grandparents think/feel their grandchildren are the best, the smartest, the most beautiful/handsome…….

I straight out have some bad/sad news for those grandparents, YOU ARE WRONG, MINE ARE!!!!!!!!!, so there.

I got to spend part of Thursday and Friday with the most precious 8 month old bundle of love and joy, that you could ever imagine. she is one of the most content happy babies I have ever seen. She has a smile that just lights up her whole face and she is most certainly not shy about sharing it.

Yes we drove out to Altona to spend time with daughter Shauna and hubby Jake. I am proud of you both you are such wonderful parents.