A tough patch but still here

I do apologize to my dear friends for any worry I may have caused during my absence.
I wrote about the procedure I was facing on Oct. 23rd.. That was quite the day. We went into the procedure expecting it to be a re-do of the ablation I had done in April. It was expected to take 1 1/2 – 2 hours. Ended up taking 4 1/2 hours and being an entirely different procedure.
A if thank you to Debbie, Vi’s sister for being there for her. As more and more time passed the more worried Vi became. Thank you Deb.
I was given conscious sedation. Meaning I was awake during the whole thing. I can tell you operating room tables are not designed for comfort. One of the medication is designed to give short term amnesia. Meaning while you are awake, you have no or little memory of the procedure when it is all done. I seen to have a high tolerance to medications and even being memory guy do remember at least some. Can’t be sure how much but enough.
I was listening to the doctors talk and heard their surprise and short term confusion when they realized it was not a simple ablation that I required.
Maybe more accurate to say surprised. All the sophisticated testing equipment them have, is not as accurate as the doctor’s eyes once he is actually in the heart. I have nothing but the highest praise for all involved. They had obviously been thrown a curve ball but they immediately kicked into high gear to find the issue. They conducted all sorts of tests right in the heart. All of this stretched the procedure time to the 4 1/2 hours. Thank you to them and to God their efforts paid off.
It was an ablation I required but a totally different one in a different area of the heart that I required. Thankfully they were able to successfully complete it.
Afterwards the doctor told me I was very lucky in that I’d they had known in advance what it was they were facing prior to beginning it is doubtful they would have even attempted it, very high risk.
Physically, it really put me on my butt. That old heart of mine has pulled me through again. This procedure was a success in that it was designed to improve quality of life not quantity. The heart failure and those issues are totall separate.
Breathing is improved, I am not falling down it was a success.
My biggest issue was allowing negativity to enter my mindset. Fear. During this whole time I have been at a much higher risk of a stroke. The though of a major stroke got to me scared me.
Is it strange, I am more prepared, less afraid of dying than I am of that major stroke.
I thank all for the prayers. I know they helped get me through this.


9 Responses to A tough patch but still here

  1. lypenner says:

    I know I won’t be alone in being happy to find a new update from you today Bill! So glad your head is above water enough to write! Thank you for your note the other day on the comment J left. You are one walking/napping/reclining miracle my friend! Awesome doctors, a heart that pulled you through again, improved breathing and less falling…not to mention a sister who helped keep Vi in faith and a blogging community that I know was praying and rooting for you. You rest all you need. I will pray for that residual fear of yours to be soothed by God somehow (no operations available for that heart problem hey?).

    And while I’m talking about prayer, I ask the blogging community to pray for my 23 year old niece Michelle. Today she’s beginning aggressive chemo treatments for non-hodgins lymphoma, a particularly aggressive strain of it. Pray for her courage and stamina and for her to lean on God and friends during this. She lives in Washington on the west coast.

    Have a good day Bill, thinking of you and Vi often.

    Morning Lydia. Thank you so much for your very kind words. Put up a prayer request for your niece. She is certainly in our prayers and of many others I am sure.
    This procedure, I hust had was designed to help with quality of life, not quantity and that it has.

  2. Deb says:

    Glad it all went well. And there is improvement. Stay positive.

    Thank you, Deb.

  3. M T McGuire says:

    Wow, well, I’m glad it went OK, sounds like the fact they didn’t know almost did you a favour. I hope you are more comfortable now and I absolutely understand how you would fear loss of movement or speech over loss of life.

    God bless Bill and keep on trucking.

    Lots of love


    Thank you, my friend

  4. hilarymb says:

    Hi Bill – I too am glad to hear from you once again. It sounds like the docs did an amazing job sorting you out and it’s being successful – that is good news.

    My thoughts for Michelle, who Lydia mentions … have a peaceful blessed weekends – Hilary

    I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful medical team. Earth Angels each and everyone of them

  5. Irene says:

    Dear Bill,
    Oh my…how nice to hear from you again. Glad to hear that the procedure is over and that the healing can begin. Isn’t the human body just an amazing piece of work???!?!???
    Thinking of you often and praying for you always, Wiseman.

    Hi Irene, you are so right our bodies are truly miraculous. Something only God could have created.

  6. rangewriter says:

    Wow! What a life you life, Bill. Always on the edge. I’m glad you’ve got a great team of professionals and that things worked out as they did. I’m sure you are exhausted after all of that excitement and the discomfort.

    Thank you my friend, exhausted, yes, but still functioning.

  7. Betty says:

    What a relief to see your post. So happy the procedure has helped. You are one tough super hero. So glad you have such wonderful medical support.

    Thank you my friend. Have had a few comments on how tough I am. Certainly don’t feel it but thank you.

  8. rosesforourselves says:

    Good to hear from you again, Bill. I’m glad the procedure went well!
    Thank you

  9. Mel says:

    Wow Bill…..sounds like G-d took REALLY good care of you. I’m so pleased to read that it all went so well, especially given what they discovered once they were in there. I’m hopeful the quality of life is changed for you. From the sounds of this post and the ones above, it sounds like it’s been successful! And that brings a smile to my face.
    A HUGE one.
    *hugs* I have more to say, but more to read as well.
    I’ve missed you, my friend. Circumstances stretch people and pull them in all sorts of directions. It’s always good to know you can come ‘home’ and steal a moment or two all for yourself.
    (that’s me being selfish….LOL)

    Mel, my dear friend it is so good to hear from you. So good to have you back. You have been missed.
    I certainly understand what you mean about circumstances pulling and stretching you in all directions. I know if some of those circumstances that have been stretching you, you have had such a tough go. Just so happy to see you back home with us here.

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