Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Happiness

December 31, 2007

I came across a wonderful quote I want to  share.

“People miss their share of happiness, not because they never found it, because they didn’t stop to enjoy it.”    William Feather.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Meeting a Friend

December 30, 2007

Really not feeling to spry today and post will be short. I had to share how much both Vi and I enjoyed the visit of a new friend.

Friday night we were both blessed and privileged to welcome to our home with a fellow blogger. “Someone in Alberta” had left comments at different times and we have in fact exchanged emails on a variety of occasions.

On Friday, “Someone from Alberta”, Stephanie was passing through Winnipeg returning to Calgary after a family Christmas. We had the opportunity to meet and she honored us by accepting our invitation to spend the night. We had a wonderful visit, we both enjoyed her company tremendously. Stephanie, it was a pleasure and an honor to meet you, thank you for “spending” some of your precious time here on this earth with us.


Dying Man’s Daily Journal – My Year

December 29, 2007

Feeling a little better today. I guess I had a bit of a reality check a 4 or 5 ago. I have written on occasion about our garage door. It has a mind of its own. Every once in a while the cables jump off the pulleys and the door won’t close. It is no big deal going out to put the cables back on the pulleys. Vi would happily do it, but it is just to high for her to reach and there is a bit of tension on the cables making it a little difficult to difficult for her.

Actually, I think it was Dec. 23rd.. Vi left for last minute shopping and phoned me to say the door wouldn’t close. No big deal I went out, put the cables back on and all was fine. I had noticed we had received about 3 or 4 inches of snow, the really light fluffy kind. As it was so light and fluffy, I decided to shovel the side walk on the way back to the house. Had to stop a couple of times to catch my breath but all seemed fine. Went back in the house just soaked in sweat. It was about 10 minutes later I started getting chest pain. Now I get chest pain all the time and don’t even give it much thought. A couple of sprays from the nitro bottle and I was fine, pain was totally gone. What it seemed to do was zap the energy right out of me and bring on one of the bouts of nausea. I am trying to figure out what triggers this nausea. It seems to just come and go. I can be fine for a couple of weeks maybe a month and suddenly it is on me. It can last a couple of days maybe a week and suddenly it is gone just as quickly as it came. I am going to watch more carefully to see if it is “physical exertion” that brings it on. May, sound strange, but I almost hope that is not the case. Even just a couple of years ago, I would have done that little shoveling and not even given it a second thought. Am just going to have to watch and see.

As seems to always be the case, as we near the end of a year I sit back and think about the year, just past.

I really have had a wonderful year. Granted, there have been a few little bumps in the road, trips to the hospital etc.. After every visit to the hospital, I was always able to walk out, a REALLY good thing. So really that is what all of these medical issues really amounted to little bumps in the road. All of this sort of stuff really only registers as a small blip on the radar.

I had a wonderful year. I have had and taken the time to work on my own spirituality. I feel I have developed a deeper relationship with God. I don’t thing any of my thinking in this area has changed just strengthened. I am so very grateful for this.

I have been able to spend a lot of quality time with family and friends. Vi and I were just talking about it over breakfast and realize we have both lost count or have no idea or the number of overnight guests with whom we have been blessed to share our home with. We agreed it has to be at least 60 people. That is not to say we had 60 different visits as often the visit would have been couples or families. We both actually think the number would be much higher but what is a number. It is that we have been so blessed with company that counts.

Over the year this blog has become increasingly important to me. There have been days when it is the main reason I drag my butt out of bed. Here through the blog I have met so many wonderful people. I have been blessed with so many visits and so many wonderful comments. No one can ever possibly understand how much these kind, caring, loving comments have meant to me. The Good Lord knows when my spirits need a bit of a boost and never lets me down. When I need a lift there is always a comment or an email that gives it to me.

I have always believed in the overall goodness, love and kindness contained in the hearts of people and I mean all people. Spend any time in the blog world and that quickly becomes so very obvious. I believe the Heavenly Father uses each and everyone as an Earth Angel at various points to  sharing love, kindness and compassion. I know this to be true, I have seen it, felt it and been blessed with it right here. Anyone that ever doubts the condition of the world today or the quality of the people living upon it, just needs to spend time in the blog world and faith will be restored, all doubts or questions gone.

It some how seems fitting the way my year is ending. I have been blessed as the recipient of a huge out pouring of love. Both in my “live” world with all the visits from so many and also here in the blog world. How better could a year end than by combining the two.

Occasionally, there have been comments left here by “Someone in Alberta”. We have over time exchange a few emails and to that extent got to know each other a little. Two or three weeks ago I got an email saying she would be passing through Winnipeg through the Christmas season and would like to meet us. That sounded wonderful to both Vi and I. We found she would be staying over night in Winnipeg. We are both thrilled that she accepted our offer of our hospitality and will be spending the night. She will be flying the rest of the way home tomorrow.

We are both excited about actually meeting someone from out there in blog land. If permission is given I hope to post both her name and picture in the next day or so. What a nice way to end an already wonderful year.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – 3900 Marbles

December 27, 2007

I thank all that have left such nice Christmas wishes. All good thoughts are returned. Our Christmas was wonderful. The only down point was being presented with such a wonderful meal and having a tummy that wasn’t ready to take it on. I did my best.

Not feeling so spry today with my wonkie head and am as I often do, copying and posting a wonderful email I received. The message is so clear and so important. I am not sure of the origins of the message or I would certainly give due credit.

3900 Saturdays

The older I get, the more I enjoy Saturday mornings. Perhaps it’s the quiet solitude that comes with being the first to rise, or maybe it’s the unbounded joy of not having to be at work. Either way, the first few hours of a Saturday morning are most enjoyable. A few weeks ago, I was shuffling toward the garage with a steaming cup of coffee in one
hand and the morning paper in the other. What began as a typical Saturday morning turned into one of those lessons that life seems to hand you from time to time. Let me tell you about it:
I turned the dial up into the phone portion of the band on my ham radio in order to listen to a Saturday morning swap net. Along the way,
I came across an older sounding chap, with a tremendous signal and a golden voice. You know the kind; he sounded like he should be in the broadcasting business. He was telling whomever he was talking with something about “a thousand marbles.” I was intrigued and stopped to listen to what he had to say.

“Well, Tom, it sure sounds like you’re busy with your job. I’m sure they pay you well but it’s a shame you have to be away from home and your family so much. Hard to believe a young fellow should have to work sixty or seventy hours a week to make ends meet. It’s too bad you missed your daughter’s “dance recital” he continued. “Let me tell you something that has helped me keep my own priorities.” And that’s when he began to explain his theory of a “thousand marbles.”

“You see, I sat down one day and did a little arithmetic. The average person lives about seventy-five years. I know, some live more and some live less, but on average, folks live about seventy-five years. “Now then, I multiplied 75 times 52 and I came up with 3900, which is the number of Saturdays that the average person has in their entire
lifetime. Now, stick with me, Tom, I’m getting to the important part.
It took me until I was fifty-five years old to think about all this in any detail”, he went on, “and by that time I had lived through over twenty-eight hundred Saturdays.” “I got to thinking that if I lived to be seventy-five, I only had about a thousand of them left to enjoy. So I went to a toy store and bought every single marble they had. I ended up having to visit three toy stores to round up 1000 marbles I took them home and put them inside a large, clear plastic container right here in the shack next to my gear.”

“Every Saturday since then, I have taken one marble out and thrown it away. I found that by watching the marbles diminish, I focused more
on the really important things in life. There’s nothing like watching your time here on this earth run out to help get your priorities straight.”

“Now let me tell you one last thing before I sign off with you and take my lovely wife out for breakfast. This morning, I took the very last
marble out of the container. I figure that if I make it until next Saturday then I have been given a little extra time.. And the one thing we can all use is a little more time.”

“It was nice to meet you Tom, I hope you spend more time with your family, and I hope to meet you again here on the band This is a 75 Year
old Man, K9NZQ, clear and going QRT, good morning!”

You could have heard a pin drop on the band when this fellow signed off. I guess he gave us all a lot to think about. I had planned to work on the antenna that morning, and then I was going to meet up with a few hams to work on the next club newsletter.

Instead, I went upstairs and woke my wife up with a kiss. “C’mon honey, I’m taking you and the kids to breakfast.” “What brought this on?” she asked with a smile “Oh, nothing special, it’s just been a long time since we spent a Saturday together with the kids. And hey, can we stop at a toy store while we’re out? I need to buy some marbles.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Christmas Day

December 25, 2007

Merry Christmas to all. May today and every day be wondrous.

I will be spending my day with a large family group, but my day wouldn’t be right or complete, if I didn’t say hi and Merry Christmas to my blogging friends.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Relax

December 24, 2007

I’m back and the computer is running better than ever. A huge thank you to an Earth Angel, Dave Lafferriere. Dave took our computer and spent, I don’t even know how many hours applying it with TLC. Dave would accept no payment of any sort, Dave, we both thank you so much.

Well here it is Christmas eve. There is really so much work and effort that goes into Christmas, but in the end it is all worth it. I can say that so easily, as I have not really had to do any work in preparing for the big day.

I have said it so many times and I will say it again. I am such a lucky man. My poor Vi has shouldered the burden alone. Countless hours shopping, baking and now the cooking is starting. Now, I know I am being a little selfish in this but I think my heart actually bled a few tears every time I saw a plate or box of baking being packed up to be delivered ELSEWHERE. Woe, is me. Thankfully I know there is still a large amount left, yippee. lol.

It is so important to realize you are lucky. It is one thing to be a lucky man, but if you don’t realize it or appreciate it, it is worth nothing. Vi, I know I am a lucky man to have you in my life. I know it and I do appreciate it. I thank you for choosing to spend your precious moments of time with me.

I can only imagine the stores will be packed to overflowing with stressed out frantic last minute shoppers. If you are one, just take a deep breath, let your shoulders sag and let go of the stress. Getting in a dither isn’t going to add any more shopping hours, only get you all worked up and miserable. This is not the season for that kind of feelings. You will get done as much as you can get done and being stressed won’t change that. It will in fact only spoil your mood. Try and give the next guy a break, remember he/she is just as frantic and frustrated as you are if not even more.

I image the planes, trains, buses and highways are packed with so many traveling. Especially, on the highways, I am sure speeding will only get you to your destination a few minutes earlier. Is it worth risking your own life and that of others for that few minutes? I don’t think so.

There was a chance I might get to actually, meet a blogging friend. A blogging friend from Calgary contacted me. She would be passing through Winnipeg on her way home for Christmas and would like to meet for coffee or something. Timing didn’t work out, will see maybe on the return trip.

Please, remember the true reason for the celebration of this season. Fill your hearts with love for all, be safe. But have a wonderful festive time.

With the computer being gone, I am even more behind than usual in replying to comments. Will try to get caught up this afternoon, pop around for a few visits.

Dying Man’s Daily Journal – MERRY CHRISTMAS

December 22, 2007

Merry Christmas to all. May all have the most joyous of festive seasons.

I purpose what I am told is and old Irish toast to all that may read this, Hey I offer this toast to the entire world. Know this comes from my heart to each and everyone of you:

“May the very best day in your past, be not nearly as good as the worst day in your future”.

Christmas Day will soon be upon us and it can be such a wonderful day. Notice, I said “can” be wonderful.

Let’s face it December 25th is just a date on a the calendar. It is what we chose to do with that date that determines it all. It is what is contained in our individual minds and hearts that really will determine the day. December 25th is a day that will be what we make of it.

Many I know will be attending various Church services, acknowledging the true meaning of Christmas. Even more will not. I hope all will at least take even just a moment to say a prayer of thanks and maybe even just say happy birthday.

Many will use this occasion for a family gathering, many traveling great distances to be home for Christmas. Many will, or can not.

Many will be alone, or maybe cases like young couples spending their first Christmas, together but away from family.

I have in fact over the years spent 2 Christmas’s alone. I admit those two, long ago Christmas’s just didn’t have the same festive feel to me. In both cases it was circumstances that dictated that I would be alone and in each case I allowed myself to develop a serious case of “poor me”. No one forced that feeling on me, I in fact chose to feel that way, I spoiled my own enjoyment of the occasion.

I am going to share a few other ways I have, or have seen others spoil their enjoyment of the Season. Now it could be asked why is this jerk writing about ways to spoil Christmas, shouldn’t he be writing about the wonders of Christmas. Well in my typical backward way that is what I am trying to do. It is still a few days before Christmas and I want all to enjoy the true wonders of the season and I suppose beware of the “pit falls” that can so easily spoil our days or at least did mine.
Enjoy, cherish and relish the day, irregardless of circumstances, events or anything.

There are hundreds of ways we can allow ourselves to spoil our day. Here are but a few of the ways I have done it to myself or seen others do it, such a shame.
Please don’t let this foolishness spoil your Christmas. Make a conscious choice the day will be wonderful and it will be. So please don’t:

-Don’t be a gift counter or try to assess the value of gifts to see if you got as much or of at least equal value to others. You are setting yourself up to spoil your day.

-Don’t get stress over trying to prepare the perfect meal and having it all ready on time. If the meal is an hour later than planned, who really cares. So the meatballs are a little burnt, who really cares. You are setting yourself up to spoil your day.

-Don’t get stressed over being stuck in the kitchen cooking while the entire family sounds to be having so much fun. Ok, this can kind of suck. Instead of fretting and letting it spoil your day, try to think of it as a loving gesture. One that you are lovingly doing to prepare that special meal for your family.

-Don’t get upset over who else may be attending a family gathering. So Uncle Fred is bringing his new wife and you can’t stand her. No one can spoil our day except ourselves.

I could go on and on, the potential list of spoilers is almost endless. I hope and I pray nothing spoils the day for anyone.

Our own personal attitude and mindset is both our greatest asset and our greats short coming. This applies with no exception and irregardless of anything.

I want to share a wonderful Christmas present I recently received. This gift came by way of a comment left for me right here on the blog. The comment was left for me by a name I was unfamiliar with, papercutstar. Here is the actual comment:

Hi, thought you might find inspiration in my blog entry about my father, 63 years of old and diagnosed with terminal colorectal cancer. Take a look- I hope that it brings joy to you this holiday season. http://papercutstar.wordpress.com/

I was intrigued and visited the site. I was both blessed and felt so gifted to have read about Mr. Max Borner. There is a beautifully written post about Mr. Borner’s battle with colorectal cancer, his chemo treatments and of how he is living with cancer. Oh, how he is LIVING with it. If there ever is a case where someone would have an excuse to just curl up in a ball and lay in bed all day it would be Mr. Borner. Has he done that, absolutely not if anything it is the exact reverse. With his amazing mindset and attitude, he is living his life. Nothing as “trivial” as cancer is going to spoil his days. His attitude and spirit are a true gift to all that read. Mr. Borner, you have become one of my true life heroes, I thank you for showing me how to live life. May I wish you and yours a very Merry Christmas.

Many will wonder, why would I share a link to a site about a man that is dying. Please read it, click on the link I posted above. Read it and you will immediately see. It is as story that will help inspire all to have a better Christmas. The gift of that has inspired me to have a better Christmas, given to me, I pass on to all.

I quote the last paragraph of the post”

“So, when the holiday blues threaten to put a damper on your outlook, take a moment to remember what’s important and get out there and do the things that make you happy. Who knows, maybe you’ll inspire someone else to do the same.”