Dying Man’s daily Journal

I was out on the front step this morning. It is just beautiful, normal spring like weather has finally arrived. I just love the sound of dozens of birds singing and that sound seemingly coming at you from every direction. 

We live well into a major city but here we have more squirrels and rabbits than I ever saw living  in rural areas. I suppose it is because they don’t have the same natural preditors here as they would in the wild. Just look around and there is such beauty everywhere. I love the color of the new leaves a much lighter shade of green than that to which they will soon become.
I realize one of the life lessons I really need to focus on is appreciation. Appreciation off all of the true blessings I have in my life. I KNOW I am a very blessed man, a very lucky man.
Some how it seems to be so easy to loose sight of the big picture and focus instead on the immediate surroundings or situation. Worrying about tomorrow only robs me of today. I don’t have enough today’s to allow that to happen. Think about it, NONE OF US, do. In our hearts we all know this, yet still allow it to happen, why?
I want to really LIVE every moment I have left. For me attitude is key. I have prayed asking for God’s will to be done in my life. Parts of me are content with that. My will keeps getting in the way. MY will is to live is to live into my 90’s and then die after being shot in the back by a jealous husband. That is a really big LOL.
I am going live and enjoy every moment I can right up until our Heavenly Father nudges me right up to the doorway to the other side. At that point and only at that point will very willingly step right though with no hesitation or concern. How are you living your life?

6 Responses to Dying Man’s daily Journal

  1. simplicianot says:

    So happy to hear you are in good spirits. Yes brother, I can hardly wait to get to that heavenly place! I pray everyday that that God will have me and my family with him for eternity!! I’m just sad that so many people will go the other direction because they are not of God and will have to suffer for eternity! I wish you and Vi a peaceful weekend filled with Faith, Hope and Love.
    God Bless

    Hi Beatrice, our prayers are ultimately the same

  2. BC says:

    I hope that, if I ever suffer from a long, serious, terminal illness, I will bear it with the same grace and good nature you show. I also hope you will have many more days to enjoy.

    Take care and enjoy the sunshine.



    Thank you

  3. Hilary says:

    Hi Bill .. I’m so pleased you’re up and posting – it’s good to hear from you .. and my wishes to both you and Vi. Having seen my mother depart or specifically watched her last years … and my uncle … remembering to say all you need to, to be at peace with the world and your family and friends … and then to have your own space and be happy enjoying the times as each day happens and watching the seasons … is so so important – many more to you .. cheers Hilary

    Thank you Hilary. Those days that you describe are the ones I strive for. Thank you for the on going support

  4. Mel says:

    LOL. 90 and a jealous husband…ROFL. Oh I adore the thought of you laughing as much asI when I read that.
    Rain this morning, but yesterday I spent on the patio, laughing at the loud wren and the silly sparrow trying to make a nest in the peanut feeder. Quite the creative option for a new home, though I doubt the woodpeckers will be amused. I feed the bunnies and ground squirrels and birdies and anything that stumbles into thw back yard and even looks like it’s hungry…LOL…including the neighbor!
    Every day is precious. Every creature miraculous. And I’m just as guilty of letting the circumstances cheating me and others. Best thing I can do is pause and shush long enough to HEAR…the message comes, thank goodness.
    Continued blessings to you and yours…and more sunshine and birdsong!

    Good for you Mel, that time on the patio sounds wonderful. I am glad you were able to just and slow your mind enough to become absorbed in the beauty that surrounds us. What a comfort that must have been.
    I did get a bit of a laugh out of that 90 year fantasy

  5. Linda says:

    You are a wonderful role model of living life to its fullest and staying present, in the moment. Thanks for passing along your wisdom.

    Thank you Linda, I am not so sure about the wisdom part. I just share what I am doing or trying to do with my life, it is so often a struggle.
    Thank you

  6. Diane says:

    I thank you for sharing your story. I have found different writings to be of a great help. The post describing the passing of a parent as them going on a wonderful vacation after which we will see them again has helped to change my thinking a little as my father is approaching his time.
    I admire you courage. You and my dad are much alike. Your illnesses are different. He is almost four years past the time the doctors gave him. He has had set backs but just keeps going and I hope he keeps on going. He doesn’t want us to worry and is doing his best to hide it from us but we can see his strength has really begun to fade over the past months.
    I know we should be grateful for the extra time and we are somehow now that seems of small comfort as we just want more and more and more.
    I, we all want to do something special for him to really let him know how important to us, how much we love him but what? We don’t want to suddenly do something out of the ordinary that makes him think because we are doing it, we are giving up on him.
    I didn’t know this would be so hard to write. I have cried more writing this stupid note than I have since We first heard he was dying. What can I do

    Hi I thank you for taking the time to reach out to us, to share such deeply personal feelings .
    I read your comment last evening and well just didn’t know how to respond. It is such an excellent question. You are in such difficult position, such a painful time. I remind you I can only share my own thoughts and feeling, I am not a doctor or therapist or any such. This is a question that actually strikes close to home for me. I need to give this some real thought and I will try to respond further. Please check your email.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you, your father and family

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