I have been awaiting today with both a little eager anticipation and well a little nervousness.
This afternoon I am off to the hospital for a two part test that I am told will determine a lot for the approach to on going medical treatment. Tests today and tomorrow, then wait for the doctor’s decision.
I have come to realize that patience is one of the life lessons I do need to work on. If I have some thing hanging over my head, I don’t like it. Instead of waiting not knowing, I would rather just face it head on, right now
I am a 61 year old male. At the age of 52 I was told by my doctor I am dying. For the past 4 years, I have done my best to deal with both congestive heart failure and a brain tumor, while knowing my days are indeed numbered. It is my hope that by sharing my experiences, I can encourage others faced with the same situation. I hope to also help the families of those individuals to have an understanding of the process and deal with the fear or dread of being around the dying.
I am not a doctor, not a man of the clergy, I am not a therapist. I am just me, Bill Howdle, I am merely sharing my thoughts and ideas. I write of death and dying, understand this is my personal prospective, based on what I am encountering.
Hi Bill .. unfortunately you’re in one of those situations where there’s no choice …. and you’re pragmatic enough to realise the sooner you know – then you can make the necessary adjustments and get on with things, as best you – and in the best way you see fit ..
So facing it head on makes so much sense – I’ll be thinking of you .. and see you when you have sufficient strength to return …
With big hugs to you and Val … and be at peace with yourself and life – we’ll be here .. Hilary
Hi Bill .. I meant you and Vi – … I hope today is being as reasonable as possible for you both …. Hilary
I sympathise. I loathe waiting, myself, once I’m in there, getting my hands dirty, doing something, it feels better. It’s hard not to feel helpless but let’s face it, none of us can control our destiny, only the way we react to events. Good luck and God Bless.
((((( Bill )))))
Thinking of you and Vi.
As much as I don’t always like the answers, I’m better with knowing than not.
I hope the tests aren’t too taxing for you. And while you don’t see yourself as patient, I think you’ve done well to do what’s in front of you during the ‘wait’.
*sending prayers and peace-filled thoughts*
I am rubbish at waiting, at not knowing, at uncertainty…………might well turn out that I like to be in control and struggle when my body has other ideas so I send you hugs, love and hold you in my heart, my mind, my soul and my prayers xxxx