This Christmas and holiday season was I think the best most wonderful I have ever had and I will be writing more about it.
One of the definite high lights was actually meeting with a blogging friend. Other than family there are only 2 or 3 three of our blogging family here that I have actually had the pleasure of meeting in person. Well Vi and I had the pleasure of having Lydia stop over for coffee and a very nice little chat. Lydia thank you again for sharing some of your precious time with us and also for the muffins which were amazing.
Having this love filled wonderful time re-enforced in my own mind what a wonderful life I do have. On reflection it has caused me to realize I have been letting myself down, letting a degree of negativity take over my mind. Actually, I have known this for a while, but just seemed to lack the energy to do anything about it. Those dreaded poor me’s. Last year was a good year for me, Hey I was here to live it. Physically though it did have some challenges.
Having a none stop head ache for over 6 months. It was constant, just the degree of pain varied, I am told I have a high tolerance for pain. In the short term maybe but when that pain goes on and on, I turn into a bit of a baby. . I lost some of the vision in my left eye. occasional periods of total blindness in my right eye. Being told you have had a series of mini strokes and that a major stroke is expected to be just around the corner, cheered me right down.
I remember one day just after learning about all this stroke stuff and trying to get my head wrapped around that whole business. i was feeling pretty down almost to the point of being just ready to throw in the towel, give up. I was thinking 5 heart attacks, heart failure, open heart surgery, brain tumor, diabetes, epilepsy, sleep apnea, neuropathy. All that is quite a handful to deal with but now we add the blindness issues, mini strokes with a pending major stroke, major blockages in the carotid arteries in my neck which have crystalized. This being the cause of the strokes. What can I say but geesh.
In that time somewhere I was on the internet. Now I can’t remember what it was that I typed in the search engine but I was surprised when this my own blog popped up as a reference site. Who would have thought that, well not me anyway. I click on it to see what I had written that day and it did help, it brought back to mind something I had forgotten or hadn’t thought of. Now I am not even sure where that post is. If you get yourself into a case of the why me’s, instead ask yourself why not me? Do I ever get wound up in thoughts like is God punishing me or anything like that. NO, I just do not believe such would happen.
What I do believe is that God loves each and everyone of us equally. Simply put and each year a certain per centage of the population will in fact get each of my ailments. What would make me thing that I am seen as being so special as to exclude me from any of these, really nothing.
God, will never give us more than He knows we can handle. I have prayed asking God to take me into his hands and that His will be done. Having said that bring it on.