Wow, here I am I made it to 60. I am sort of in awe or something. In awe for 2 reasons I suppose, against the odds I am still here and then there is the I AM 60 how did that many years just speed by so quickly.
A thought has been “haunting” me. I can clearly remember back to when all of my medical issues began. One doctor told me I had 2 years if I was lucky. I think I was 52 or 53 at the time and I remember praying, “I am too young to die, please give me at least until I am 60.” Huh, and here I am having been granted that extra time. Somehow, I can’t help but be thinking I should have asked for at least 65.
This past couple of weeks have not been all that encouraging 3 out of 3. Now you would think that after dealing with all of this for the past years I would be expecting/accepting of the doctors words as I hear them. No, each time it seems to rock me a little bit sending my head into a bit of a tail spin. Thankfully I have reached the point where it seems to only take a day or 2 to get my mind back into focus.
Over the years some how my prayers have changed. Gone for desperately pleading for more time to praying that our Heavenly Father take me in his hands and that His will be done in all areas of my life. I mean what better place could I be and what better things could I hope for in my life.
That must sound like I am totally calm and serene and really for the most part I am but I do have MY MOMENTS