My first time at the computer in a few days.. A big thank you to all that sent messages of condolences, offering up prayers. Sorry if my absence for this past while caused concern. Things have been a little busy different around here.
Firstly, Vi and family all made it back to Winnipeg safe and sound. The normal 8 hour drive took closer to 11 hours. At times driving conditions were terrible through one of our infamous Manitoba winter blizzards. Icy roads, heavy blowing snow causing zero visibility at times. All were tired but make it home in one piece.
It has been a very trying time for all. When you lose someone, anyone that plays a large, important part in your life you obviously feel a great sense of loss. You know your life has been changed forever, it will never again be as it was before. Now just because it will never be the same again does not mean it will not be good again. With a little time as we learn to adapt to this new and changed life of ours, we come to realize that is can and will be as good again but in a slightly different way. Often in the feelings of the moment that can escape our ability to envision. Grief is a very personal, individual thing with all dealing with it in their own way.
My way will be to return here to the blog as much as I can. I have much I need to write to get out of my system. Journaling has helped me so much in the past and here I am again.
I almost feel guilty or something as I do not want Nellies passing to become an all about me thing. Yet, I need to journal my feelings and issues with it all. Holding her hand as she lay in that bed as wwe knew her heart was failing. An image would pop into my head. The image was of me laying there. Our medical conditions are not all that different