I often talk about the “highway of life”. Well I have been on quite a bumpy section of highway for this past while. The only thing we can be certain of in life is nothing is certain. Nothing lasts forever, not the good nor the rough times. One way or the other things will be better for me.
I can’s even remember right now, is it 4 times or 5 times when they had all but just written me off, yet here I am. I think maybe I must be something like a bad dream for them. I just won’t go away, i just keep coming back again and again. I still have a lot of living to do and by my plan I am going to live a lot more of it. I have prayed many times just asking for God’s will to be done in my life. Now as I am praying for that, it just makes sense that I just accept what comes. Now that though doesn’t mean I am not going to do every thing in my power to hang around here for a while longer. I am a lot slower than I once was, I tire a lot faster than I once did, my breathing is not what it once was. However, none of that means stopped!!!!
Vi says I can be confusing. “you look like you are find, You act like you are fine and you say you are fine, how is anyone supposed to know what is going on?” Well Vi knows me well enough that she can pretty much tell when I am having on off day. My social life is mostly limited to me sitting on the front step chatting with neighbours as they walk by. With them I do try to be just a normal, cheerful guy. I imagine most of them just see me as a “normal” and healthy guy or at least that is the face I try to put on for them to see.
Now there are a gazillion exceptions to what I am about to say and I know that. Just because you are sick doesn’t necessarily mean you have to act like you are sick. Just because you are dying doesn’t mean you have to act like it. Do what ever it takes to take care of yourself but at least put you best effort in to trying to carry on. That is what I am doing. I am going to do my best to LIVE life right up until that last breath leaves my body
I often write about that which I am working on with in myself, there you have it.