Over the past while I have written of Vi’s mum Nellie being in the hospital. That Nellie is a smart lady in the past couple of months she has been hospitalized twice, each time she has waited until she was in the hospital before having a heart attack. Currently she is at home and doing as well as can be hoped for.
While she was in the hospital I had a chat with her. There are a couple of things that she said that just keep running around in my head making my heart just ache.
To set the stage, it was right after the last heart attack and she was being given a lot of medication. Most of the conversation was just a nice little visit but her mind did on occasion wander off to some far past time and she would ask to see long gone friends or relatives. Then suddenly she was “back” and the normal conversation just carried on. Through our the entire time it was obvious she was struggling with memory. Then the conversation went something like this:
Nellie: Does everyone know I am here?.
Me: I think so.
Nellie: I am in the hospital, I am dying, doesn’t anyone care enough to come to see me!
Now at this point her eyes had welled up. It was heart breaking to see
Now this was just one of her “memory” moments. There are many that care and many that visit her. It was just that at that moment her memory was failing her It is just at that moment. I think she was feeling hearty broken that no one cared enough to visit, lonely and afraid. I was sitting there holding her hand and reminded her of who had been then and who would be coming. Just hearing that seem to comfort and reassure her making her feel much better. She was tired and I left shortly after that.
Her words: ” I am in the hospital, I am dying, doesn’t anyone care enough to come to see me!”
I just ask all to think about those words