I thank all for the loving support for Nellie, Vi and entire family.
I am happy to say Nellie has rallied to the point where the doctors have allowed her to go home, where she really wants to be. It is at the point where really nothing more can be done other than keep her comfortable.Doctors noted a mass on or in the lung and are quite sure it is cancer. The decision has been make not to even check it out as in her condition she could not tolerate any of the potential treatments. It is not causing her any pain or discomfort so just leave it alone.
Emotionally, Vi is really struggling with all of this, well as is the entire family. Vi is as always struggling to deal with my health issues, now compound that with the pending loss of her mother is a heavey burden. I ask for prayers please.
I am on a real learning curve here. How many times have I said I believe it is harder on the families. Everything I see going on around me just solidifies that idea more and more in my head. The frustration of seeing a loved one suffering and just standing helplessly by wanting to do something anything. Knowing there is nothing you can do or say that will make any difference. Frustration, even anger can mistakenly be directed at the hospital staff because of their inability to at least make things better.
Be clear none of my thoughts here or comments are to be seen as being directed at the family. i know that each individual grieves in their own way, irregardless of who they are.
In a situation like this it seems avoidance is a big issue. “I know what is going on but i just don’t want to even think about it, even the thought of this loss is just too painful”
I have a lot more to say but is seems just staring at the computer screen, with its bright light has brought on one of the head aches I am still fighting