I haven’t been feeling all that spry of late, feeling down in the dumps. Very lethargic, no energy have to push myself to do almost everything. Yes, these are the symptoms of heart failure but I do think it has gone beyond that. I have struggled, worked at maintaining a positive attitude never wanting to get into that woe is me mind set,. Some how in spite of myself I have managed to get myself there. It took me a while to realize it and then longer to accept it. Why is it so hard to recognize and then accept things within our own behavior or mind set that there are things going on that we don’t like. Stranger even to me is that once we do reach this point, if we do at all, we are so very reluctant to do anything about it. We truly are our own worst enemies, our own thoughts our worst enemies. What are our thoughts, nothing but ideas running around in our heads. We can change those ideas/thoughts and by doing that we change our perspective of ourselves and the whole world. Now that I do realize where I am in my thinking, I realize it is time to make the changes necessary or at least work on them as I know it can take time.
This blog has been a huge help/support to me, for me. Writing, getting my feelings out and then receiving the wonderful loving support of so many wonderful people from all over the world, I can’t describe it. So I am going back to the basics, the beginning. Writing out my core beliefs and feelings will help re-enforce them in my own mind.
I think it is fair to say none of us or at least very few of us want to die. I do have strong spiritual beliefs but I am not going to get into them quite yet. Now logic tells me If you don’t want to die, you must want to keep living your life as good or bad as it may seem to you at the time. I hope and pray the lives of everyone that may read this are very good. If that is so, do you take the time to appreciate it or do you just take it for granted. Take a minute and think about that. Now, if your life is not as good as you would like it to be, what are you doing about it?
Very often the biggest thing we can change in our lives is often the only thing we can change and that is our own thinking. That is what I am doing, what about you!!!