I feel just plain worn out. That worn out feeling that seems to just go right to the center of your being. I have been working on the final room in the renovation master plan I have had all along for the house. Now working at “Bill” speed (Bill speed is working for 2-3 minutes and then sitting down to huff and puff for about 5 minutes) and only being able to do that for a couple of hours each day does extend the length of time it takes. . It seems I can only put in 2-3 of my “work” days and I have to take a couple of days off to regenerate tha batteries.But, hey step by step I am getting there. My mood, my thoughts about this whole thing vary by the day, or maybe it is by how worn out I am.
There are times when I feel very frustrated over my lack of stamina and how slow things are going. I think back to how there was a time when I could have worked all day and then come home and put in a real 4-5 hours of work on it. Then I have to give my head a shake and rethink it. This really has turned into a much bigger project than I first thought but the fact of the matter is I am getting it done. Life may be slowing me down but it is not stopping me. I have to keep reminding myself life is not a race to get things done. It is making the most of our time while we are getting those things done.
For both Vi and myself I thank all those that left Vi the birthday wishes. I know she will be coming on-line to thank each individually. At her work place they are so short of staff she has been putting in 12 hour shifts and is just too tired when she gets home to do much of anything. She is being shy but she will get here.