Dying Man’s Daily Journal – controlling your feelings

An up date on my detached retina. Everything is going very well. If anything I believe my vision out of that eye is better than it was before, go figure. If I just look out of that eye vertical lines still appear a little wavy. Looking through both eyes and I don’t even notice it any more. At the time the 2 weeks of laying face down was a pain but getting better eye sight out of the deal made is very worth the effort.

As I am sitting here that has really made me think. I know I have written about this before but when I first learned I had to spend 45-50 minutes of each hour lying face down, I was not a happy camper. The first couple of days were long and boring with my back starting to get stiff and sore. I had thoughts like: “I don’t knowhow many days I have left and I don’t want to waste any of them just lying here like this.” But then the realization came back to me, I am the captain of my own ship of life. I have the ability within myself to make a conscious decision every morning as to whether I am going to have a good day or a bad day as is everyone else.If you are unable to change a situation or circumstance make the best of it. From that moment on none of my days were “wasted”. I used the time to recharge my emotional and spiritual batteries. which is something we all need to do at times. With that simple change in my thought process I changed boring wasted days to content, refreshing days. With the added bonus of improved vision it is a win/win for me. Now, I do know also that without that change in mindset the boredom would have played on me to the point where I would have eventually just said to heck with this and spent far more time up and about than I should have. Life is what we make it. Every situation is what we in our minds make it. We just need to think about that, realize that it is true and work it into our lives.

Your feelings and emotions, you are the only one that controls them. No one can make you mad, no one can make you happy. That is sometimes a hard concept to grasp and is one I struggle with. It seems the natural human reaction is: of course someone can make me angry, if someone does………. it is going to really tic me off and I am going to let them know about it. Try thinking of it as, someone else’s bad or inappropriate behavior reflects on them and them alone. It doesn’t have to affect me in anyway unless I allow it to. It takes work, it takes practice and I struggle with it at time, but I do know it is possible.

Can you imagine a day, imagine a week, image a life time in which we were able to never allow the negative, inappropriate actions or words of anyone else to bother us? What do you think about that?