I was recently asked what I saw as being the focal point or purpose for my blog. As I think on it I realize how much my thoughts and feelings have changed over the years of writing. i have to smile when I use those words “years of writing”. It must be 6 or 7 years now that I have been cluttering up the internet with my ramblings. I think it was in Sept or Oct. that I started and at that point in time, I really questioned whether or not I would be seeing that next Christmas.Surprise I am still here, a fact for which I daily thank our Heavenly Father.
I think patience is one of the life lessons I am meant to learn here. Things happen in God’s time not my time. I am just not sure how that lesson applies here and how I am to use it. Now how to word this so it makes any sort of sense. I have always been the kind of person that doesn’t like having something hanging over my head. By that I mean if I have to face something or do something that I am not looking forward to, I would just as soon do it now, let’s get this over with. Example, if my doctors came to me and told me I definitely need open heart surgery. I could have it today, next week, next month or even next year. Now assuming there are no advantages or disadvantages involve with the timing. I would choose today. Let’s just get this done and over with, I don’t want to have to sit here fretting about it.
Now this whole dying thing is a pretty big mill stone to have hanging over your head. Here my thought process suddenly does a complete flip. Instead of wanting to deal with it and get it over and done with as soon as possible, I am all for putting it off for as long as possible!!!! This is a weight on my shoulders I am more than willing to carry for years and years if allowed to. I say allowed to as I do know it is our Heavenly Father that will determine the timing of that event.
The vast, vast majority of time I am able to deal with it. Not just deal with it but truly enjoy my life. I have a wonderful life, I realize that and I am so very appreciative.
I have been given this extra time, have lived it and loved it. Geesh, I think about it and realize this past few years could have been pretty miserable if I had not made the effort to come to terms with my situation. To have learned to love and appreciate the beauties, the wonders in life. The wonders and beauties of life are all around each of us. I have to wonder though, how many take the time to recognize and appreciate them. This world of ours is a wonderful place and I am grateful for every moment I am allowed to remain.