Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Never give up living


Congratulations to Bernice and Dale Miller. We attended their wedding on May 24th and had a wonderful time

Seems like a long time since I sat down to write here on the blog. We attended the wedding as I said and as good a time as we had it seemed to really take a toll on me. It was hot and very humid. The air conditioner in the hotel had broken down. Heat, humidity and I do not mix. It seemed to just suck the energy right out of me. I am not as resilient as I once was and it takes a few days to get back to my norm.

Plus since we have been back, we have had some beautiful spring days. Overall the spring hasn’t been all that great with a lot of rain, cooler temps and very cloudy but still enough of those nice days that I am working on my 3rd. sunburn. My head seems to burn very easily as I have a slightly receding hair line. Well maybe it has receded more than slightly. OK, OK, you got me I am bald on top.  I think I heard somewhere that bald is sexy or maybe I just made that up to make myself feel good.

With spring comes the work out in the yard hence the sun burn.

Over the past while I realize I have allowed myself to become lazy or maybe it is my thinking became misguided. I have quite a list of medical issues of which some are quite serious.Serious enough to be to the point some doctors have used the dying word. My heart is a little gimpy to the point I tire very easily and shortness of breath is a constant issue. This being the case I don’t think anyone would blame me if I just pretty much physically shut down. Walk up a single flight of stairs and I am huffing and puffing.. It would be easier to just sit around and leave all the physical endeavours to someone else. Now I accept my decreasing physical limitations rather grudgingly and seem to need a little time to adjust my thinking with each down ward slide, but I do get there.

I think my point is I have never totally given up on at least trying my best to do at least something. We can’t give up. For me anyway giving up would be giving in and a feeling of uselessness would over come me. I know that feeling, I have felt myself on that slippery slope but have been able to pull myself up and out of it before getting too far down.

I think if I got to the point of feeling totally  useless, having no purpose life would become meaningless. In effect “I” would have died long before my physical body does. We fear or at least dread the though of physical death so why would we give up on living life before we have to?

Physical limitations place great restrictions on what we can or can’t do, believe me I know that. do these physical limitations prevent me from doing anything and everything?NO. I do what I can while respecting those limitations but not giving in to them. That is important to me.I am not useless my life still does have meaning.I am here and I matter.

I was asked to do a post about the importance of continuing to really life our lives, to never give up, to never give in to those feelings of uselessness. This is a topic near and dear to my heart and I know I have discussed it in the past.

To any and all that are affected by any sort of physical limitations.You are a person that matters,you are not defined by your limitations.We are never useless until we quit trying. It seems too often we live our lives thinking only things that are big and spectacular have any meaning. “There is nothing I could do that would have any meaning or be any sort of real contribution.” To that I say WRONG!!!

Over the past year or two, we have done a lot of work on the house,mostly cosmetic. There was a time when I would have tackle each task alone, never given it a thought or even broken a sweat.I can’t so that any more. I need help with it. The important thing for me is that while maybe I can’t do it all but I can still do some of it, I can still participate in and contribute to the job at hand. The size of the contribution isn’t as important as is the fact that we are there doing what we can.Never give up.

Not sure why that paragraph suddenly Change to the large almost unreadalbe style of print. Decided, what the heck, I will just leave it as it came out. But for easier reading I have retyped it as it had started:  Over the past year or two, we have done a lot of work on the house,mostly cosmetic. There was a time when I would have tackle each task alone, never given it a thought or even broken a sweat.I can’t so that any more. I need help with it. The important thing for me is that while maybe I can’t do it all but I can still do some of it, I can still participate in and contribute to the job at hand. The size of the contribution isn’t as important as is the fact that we are there doing what we can.Never give up

While I am on this topic, I really do have to acknowledge my brother-in-law Henri. Henri is indeed a very special guy. He has provided us with hundreds of hours of labor for which he will take nothing. I thank you Henri. You are an Earth Angel

OOPS,I don’t know that happened. That one paragraph has such large print.Don’t know what I did or how to fix it, so, Oh well

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2 Responses to Dying Man’s Daily Journal – Never give up living

  1. Carol says:

    I have only been reading your blog for a short time and have not read all of it. I came here after my husband died of liver cancer 2/14/11. I am still just trying to process my grief over losing my soul mate. He was the center of my life and now it is just a matter of trying to come to terms with life in this world without him. I’m not sure if you have ever heard of the 11:11 prompts but I really hope you will go to my blog and click on the link at the bottom called The Correcting Time. As you are on this journey I would want to be sure you have knowledge of this to carry with you. Blessings to you and good will. Thanks for what you’re doing here. It is a precious gift to all of us.
    http://herealmostheaven.blog

    Hi Carol, I popped over to visit your blog. It is a truly beautiful tribute to you husband. I tried to leave you a message but am not sure if it went through. I checked you the web site you referred to. It looks to be very interesting and I will be returning to visit and read more.
    You are in my heart and prayers.
    Bill

  2. souldipper says:

    I smiled, Bill, over your comment about the large print. It seems that paragraph deserved large print. Thank you for your incredible openness and willingness to teach us. You seem to live true to a high purpose that surely is yours.

    I thank you for your so kind words. I went and looked at that paragraph, it was so hard to read I rewrote it. I would like everyone to be able to understand it.
    It is so nice to hear from you my friend.
    Bill

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