Dying Man’s Daily Journal – We can never understand everything

I am happy  to say Vi is doing much much better. She saw her doctor yesterday, but he had none of her test results, even those done close to a month ago. He gave her a new medication that hopefully will help her. She does though seem to be back to her normal self.

Hey, my new computer seems to be working fine, yipee. Last evening I was surfing the web, checking out this new computer. Generally I check the more news related sites. I was surprised to read Canadians are taking quite a bashing on different news sites. Well that is on U.S. and British sites. I suppose as those are the only ones I visited it could in fact be the same on others, I don’t know. Actually, I got quite a chuckle out of it. I am a proud Canadian and I guess to some that makes me : “an Ice Hole”, “a Country Bunpkin”, a “wannabe American” plus a bunch of other things that I can’t remember. I can’t help  but chuckle even as I write this. I guess that makes me a Proud Ice Hole”. lol.  It is all over the Olympics. Diffrerent issues were raised but one is the weather and it’s affect on the ski slopes. Now, Us Canadians, we are good but even as good as we are we haven’t figured out how to control the weather. We will have to get on that in the next few days. lol

This all really makes me realize how much I have changed over the years. There was a time when reading comments such as those would have had me just jumping up and down mad. Now I just shake head and chuckle.

I really am trying to get a better understanding of life. My life in particular, how  I see myself, how I see myself relating to the world and how I see the world in general. I suppose I am seeking a greater understanding of what it is all about. I do believe I am making at least some headway in this. I think the greatest  understanding I have reached is that there is just an endless list of things I will never understand. I think the biggest revalation for me was,  I don’t  have to  understand so very many things that go on around me or in the world as a whole. I realize that most often, my confusion or lack of understanding comes from the actions or reactions of other people.

Just realizing and accepting the plain fact that there is so much I will never be able to understand gives me a sense of freedom. Not sure if I am making that clear.

Everyone is making this same journey through life. Some are just on different pathes than the one I have chosen. NO ONE can ever travel exactly the same path as another. Each person being on their own journey will encounter different options, challenges and rewards than I may on my path. That is to be expected, it is a slightly different path, the trip has to be even just slightly different. Huh, I had a point I was leading to here but seem to have lost my train of thought. Not sure what the point was but I bet it was a good on. lol.

12 Responses to Dying Man’s Daily Journal – We can never understand everything

  1. Jaymie says:

    My dad always says, “I don’t know what I don’t know” – he claims that is something you understand with age. I must be getting old. 😉

  2. Mel says:

    I’m glad to say I don’t feel a need to ‘know’ or ‘understand’. Not my job–thank goodness. Mine is to love ’em anyway…and to be at peace with knowing less today than I’ve ever known. I don’t have to know–and that, my friend–IS freedom.

    By the way–I think Canada’s doing a splendid job! Himself has thoroughly enjoyed the curling and I’ve enjoyed him enjoying. 🙂

    And just as a friendly reminder — other people’s opinions of you (or me) aren’t really any of their business…or ours! Ain’t that cool?! 🙂

  3. Mel says:

    Oh–and you can guess that I’m relieved beyond relieved to hear that Vi’s feelign a-okay!


  4. Jill says:

    I’m not surprised by what you’re reading re the Olympics. When we had them here in Atlanta we got the same types of comments about the “South”. We were fortunate enough to be able to host an archery coach from the Ukraine and so those Olympics were extra special for us. Personally, I think some people aren’t happy unless they can either bash or make fun of anyone other than themselves. Must be REALLY insecure LOL Sad state of affairs.

  5. Irene says:

    Dear Bill,
    Glad to hear that Vi is feeling better!! I’ve been thinking about your post quite a bit and I think you’re absolutely correct: the older I get, the less I know. (Too soon old…too late smart syndrome I guess?) I find myself googling lots of questions throughout any day covering a whole variety of topics. It just seems that as I age, my curiosity about things is increasing. I’m interested in more things as I am able to less and less–what a paradox! Go figure??!! Take care of yourself. Praying for you always, Wiseman.

  6. cocorue says:

    hello Bill,
    i’m glad that Vi is better and i agree that i seem to know less as i grow older and i also don’t seem to get any wiser BOL……

    i’m so inpired by you that i dedicated a post to you and Silindile


  7. Mel says:

    How’s that new ‘puter workin’ for ya, sir?

    (((((((((( Bill ))))))))))) (thinkin’ of ya!!)

  8. Gisele says:

    Dear Bill: My name is Gisele. I’m 52 years old and I was diagnosed With HIV 25 years ago. Still kicking, and I’ve been on Palliative care for 1 year now. To say I’ve beeb dying for some time now is no small matter. I recently began a blog about dying and HIV but I soon realized that HIV had little to do with my dying. I was pleased to find a whole network of blogs on dying and yours is the first one I’ve read. I can hear myself in your thoughts. Thank you so much for sharing them. I wish you a good day and will continue to follow your journey with you.

  9. Betty says:

    HI Bill

    Hope all is well with you and Vi. I assume you are still enjoying the Winter Olympics just as we are. What a wonderful way to spend two weeks of our long winter.

    Take care.

  10. Mel says:

    ((((((( Bill )))))))

    Just checkin’ in.
    Hope all is well for you and Vi.

  11. Carol Anderson says:

    Vi and Bill,

    Nothing on the blog for a while now.Hope that means that you were so involved with the opympics that you had no time. As you know, some of the relatives are visiting on Easter weekend. I talked to Marg yesterday and we talked about the possibility of a pot luck supper. Wondered about Sunday or Monday? I know that we must not interfere with the championship of the world title. Garry and I will be staying at his mother’s house so we need to coordinate with that family too. Looking forward to the visit.

  12. Mel says:

    Ah HA!!

    Out practicing for the World Title!!!!!

    *laughing* Shoulda known…..

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