Am feeling really tired, have been having a little trouble sleeping the past few nights and have ended up watching TV until way way to late.
I think it would be fair to say the vast majority of people fear dying. Now I know some will immediately say “I am not afraid to die”. To those I ask a simple question. Do you know you are actually facing it? OR, is it really just an abstract thought about something that may happen in the far distant future? Really I think it is one of those life situations you actually have to be in before you do know how you will feel.
Dying is not something that may happen in the far distant future. It is in fact something that will happen to each and every one of us. There is no uncertainly about that. The only uncertainty in this whole thing is the when it will happen and I suppose how. Now that may sound depressing or even yes morbid. I don’t mean it that way, I am just stating a fact of life.
The point I am trying to make is that if we fear death so much, It stands to reason we must cherish and value the lives we have and don’t want to loose it. I think that is wonderful.
I have to ask the question though. If we love and cherish our time on this earth so very much, what are we doing with that time? Time is a limited resource, we only have so much of it to spend on this earth. If we value it so much, how are we spending it?
For me to get my human mind wrapped around an idea or concept, I find I have to come up with a human comparable. I was a banker all of my working career so I suppose it is natural my mind would go in that direction.
I see life as being like a bank account. I hope I can find the wording to describe what I mean here. On the very day we are born our Heavenly Father open what I suppose you could call a “Life Account” in our names. In to that account in our names He puts a certain number of days. Those days, what ever the number may be are all we have to work with in this life time. How wisely we spend those days is left up to us.
My bank account comparable. Most of us have a bank account into which each month a limited number of dollars are placed. We know the number of dollars is limited. We must budget, spend those dollars wisely to ensure we get the biggest bang for the buck. Again as it is with our days, how wisely we spend those dollars is left up to us.
I don’t know how many days I have left in my life account with God. I just know I want to spend them wisely to ensure I get the biggest bang for my buck. How about you?
That is a good question. And the answer is, I am facing death. I have been fighting for two years and I do not fear death. I fear two things. The first is a rational fear of the pain of passing. Now the melanoma has movedc to my lung and also to my right arm pit. I fear the pain of not being able to breath and the pain of movement. The second fear is irrational. I do pray to God every day in most ways. I have asked for forgiveness and mercy. I also have ask for an easy passing. However, I still fear judgement, even though I know God’s love. I do choose to focus on what I can do today, and the love I have recieved from God.
Hello David, I am sorry to hear of what your are going through and what you face in the future.
I can easily understand and relate to the fears you speak of. I also pray for a peaceful pain free passing. Actually, I believe the passing over will be a beautiful thing, it is more the final moments on this earth that may contain the pain.
As you do I believe in a loving God, A God that will lovingly welcome us home. I do believe this but have to admit that depending on the day, on my mood, on all sorts of things, there are days when a little nervousness sneaks into my being.
The biggest issue for me is leaving behind those that I love so dearly. I know they will get on with life just fine but I still worry.
I read all of the comments before I started typing a response. I see my brother-in-law Henri has left a wonderful comment that I think really says it all
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I do hope to hear more from you
Hi Bill 🙂
I was shocked, confused, bewildered
As I entered Heaven’s door,
Not by the beauty of it all,
Nor the lights or its decor.
But it was the folks in Heaven
Who made me sputter and gasp–
The thieves, the liars, the sinners,
The alcoholics and the trash.
There stood the kid from seventh grade
Who swiped my lunch money twice.
Next to him was my old neighbor
Who never said anything nice.
Bill,(different Bill:) who I always thought
Was rotting away in hell,
Was sitting pretty on cloud nine,
Looking incredibly well.
I nudged Jesus, ‘What’s the deal?
I would love to hear Your take.
How’d all these sinners get up here?
God must’ve made a mistake.
‘And why is everyone so quiet,
So somber – give me a clue.’
‘Hush, child,’ He said, ‘they’re all in shock.
No one thought they’d be seeing you.’
Every saint has a PAST…
Every sinner has a FUTURE!
Now it’s yourturn/my turn/our turn…
Henri, this is both wonderful and beautiful. I thank you so very much for sharing it. Hey, imagine the shocked looks there will be when I show up. lol (that is lol, I think)
I’m with you all the way. When I was a kid at school a couple of people my age and a bit younger died… I’ve tried to live each day as if it’s my last ever since…
Right on BC, you keep going like that
Okay–I really, really liked Henri’s posting….but go figure (I think I’ve developed a fondness for Henri…LOL). Well, that and I imagine they’ll all be gawking at my arrival as well.
I will have to say, the further I get from having my mortality in my face, the cockier I get. I know I’ve mentioned this before–and I’ll keep bringing it to my attention…cuz I’d be silly not to.
Am I making the most of the time I have on this planet? No. I’m making good use of it–but the most? Probably not.
Bucket list maybe? (I hear tell that’s worthy of a watch.)
And David– Bless you for sharing with us. I do hope you’ll return.
Hi Mel, I am sure Henri will be reading this and be flattered at the thought of your fondness for him. He really is a good guy.
You are right, it is so easy to get a little cocky when the health situation sort of levels out, that is for me anyway.
The bucket list is a great movie and having such a list personally is also a good idea. I actually have 2 such lists, there is the realistic list and the fantasy list.