Am feeling really tired and worn out. Still working on the kitchen reno. Most days dedicating about 6 or 7 hours to it. Those are “Bill” hours, actually do something for about 5 minutes then huff and puff for 10 minutes (OK, often that 10 minutes may stretch to 20 or 30), I have to thank my brother-in-law Henri so very much. He has donated, gifted us with so much of his precious time. For most of the hours I have been at it, he has been at my side. HIS work hour is a full 60 minutes. HENRI IS AN OFFICIAL EARTH ANGEL.
I am truly blessed to have the people I do in my life. Earth Angels abound. When it came time to pick up the flooring, I needed the use of a truck. The only one I know with a truck is another brother-in-law Neal. I phoned to ask if he might have some time, I put in the qualifier that if he had other plans, no problem. His immediate response was: “sure, no problem when do you need me.” It was only after he arrived that I could see he was very ill and learned he had actually spent the previous 3 or 4 days in bed with this cold/flu thing. Another official Earth Angel.
This decline in my physical capacity has been a very humbling experience for me. There is a lesson to be learned in everything. I sent most of my life with the attitude, “I am a man” it don’t need help I can do it myself” or “it’s my job and I will get it done”. I think it was the unmanly thing mostly. I saw it as a sight of weakness or being less than, if I had to ask for help. I have learned it is not unmanly to ask for help, nor is it a sign of weakness, it is instead a sign of being human. Hey, maybe it has taken me all these years just to become human. lol.
I do though have a couple of very strict rules about asking favours or about asking for help. This is the MANLY me coming out.
I do not want to put upon or use people. I have to know in my heart that if the exact situation was reversed. If the situation was reversed and this same person was asking me for this same favor. Would I do it? If in fact I know I would do it without hesitation. Then and only then will I ask that favour.
Secondly, if I sense any sort of hesitation or reluctance, I will back off immediately.
I have a statement to make that I can say with absolute certainty. Now in the past some have joked (I think they were joking lol) that my head is like a basketball, full of nothing but hot air. I do know now for a fact that is not true. A basketball bounces, my head does not. Hmm, maybe that means it is more like a bowling ball, geesh.
Will be glad to get this whole reno thing finish. Last night had a “Bill” moment. That flooring I spoke of, well it is in a big 12 foot roll. Until the flooring guy gets here, where do you actually store such a thing. Well at the time it seemed like the best place was on the floor directly in front of the front door. Now that means it stretches across the foyer and hall way. Now that means you are constantly stepping over it but it really isn’t all that high and should be no big deal. That is unless you are Bill, it is dark being in the middle of the night, you are half asleep. I wanted a glass of water and was walking to the kitchen. I have made that trip a thousand times before and “know it in the dark”, who needs a light.
I remembered the flooring just as I was hitting the floor. Hit it so hard the noise of the impact woke Vi up. Luckily for me, I was able to break most of the fall with my head, so no serious damage could have been done.