Not feeling so very spry today. Wasn’t feeling so good yesterday and felt really guilty. Brother-in-law Henri was over to help with some painting, I basically just laid around watching him. Thank you Henri.
Something thought just seemed to hit me like a ton of bricks last evening. It was not a fun night last night. Let’s just say I spent a lot of time in the bathroom, with both ends in action. For the first time ever, I have had to postpone a doctors appointment. I was supposed to see my cardiologist this morning but had to reschedule .
Have been fighting some sort of a bug for over 3 months now. Doctor’s can’t seem to put a finger on exactly what it is. I think I just picked up a flu bug.Hey, speaking of flu bugs. Here in Manitoba anyway, daily we are getting information on this apparent possible pending N1H1 pandemic and of how the government and health official are prepared for it. Huh, on Monday I was turned away from a community clinic giving the vaccinations for it. It seems we have already run out of the shots. Knowing they were running out they came up with a priority list as to who would and wouldn’t get them. On that list are people with chronic health conditions, well that is me. BUT, because of this shortage the list was amended to people with chronic health conditions who are 55 years old or younger. I am 56, geesh.
Oh well, I pray daily to have God’s will done in my life. The shot I would have received obviously went to someone else in greater need than I, so be it. This shortage is only very temporary and I will get my needle in due time. This is another one of those things that I so often write about There are always 2 ways to look at every thing.
There is nothing I can do about this shortage. So, I have a choise to make. I can get my shorts in a wad, get mad, jump up and down, getting all stressed and making myself really miserable, and then get my needle when the new shipment arrives. Or, I can just relax and think to myself. Well this isn’t the way “I” thought things were going to go. Oh, well, I guess I will just get it in a few days when the new shipment arrives.
Either choise that I make won’t change the end result, being when I do get the vaccination. What will change though is the quality of life, the enjoyment I get out of life during the time I am waiting.
It seems like forever, that I have had this 2 ways you can look at things idea in my head. This may sound strange and maybe it is, I don’t know. Overall, I would have to say that this whole “dying” experience has been beneficial to me. First off, hey I haven’t died yet now that is a really big one for me. It truly has changed my way of thinking and the way I see the world. The change is remarkable, it really is like I am seeing through new or a different set of eyes. Through these eyes I see such a beautiful and wonderful world. It is the same world that has always been there, I just couldn’t seem to see it before. Does that mean I am suddenly blind to the problems or issues in the world today, of course not. It is just now, I see that nothing is as “bad” or “hopeless” as I may have previously seen.
I have been so blessed, so lucky to have had my eyes opened to really see the world as it is. For this I thank God.
Wow, I started this post off intending for it to be only a few lines saying I wasn’t feeling so well and would get up my kindness post tomorrow. In my usual rambling way I have just carried on.