I got some news from my doctor that was not all that good, but I needed to hear it.
Firstly, I never want to bury my head in the sand and just pretend every thing is just fine. The no news is good news, just doesn’t work for me. I want, no I need to know what is going on.
So the old ticker isn’t ticking quite the way it has been. So what is new with that, I have known that for a long time now. This heart of mine has been through a lot, has endured a lot, but IT IS STILL TICKING AWAY. It has indeed served me well and is still doing so. OK, so it isn’t beating quite as efficiently as it has, but it is still beating, isn’t that what is the most important thing.
I needed to hear that news as I do realize I was in fact becoming much to complacent about this whole thing. Things had settled down and my world is fine.
Hearing that news doesn’t mean my world isn’t still just fine. Actually, my world is great, I am a very lucky man. Now it is just a given when I say I am a lucky my that I mean by having the wonderful family that I do. Here though when I say I am lucky, I suppose I mean I am blessed, my heart just seems to keep defying the odds and goes about it’s business, almost irregardless of what it goes through. It may be showing a little wear and tear but it is still carrying on with the business of keeping me alive. Now, I have to like that.
I attribute much of it to the countless prayers that have been said from me, from around the world. I thank everyone so very much. There is no doubt the power of prayer is an awesome thing. The Good Lord is obviously keeping me here for some reason for which I am grateful I still have a lot of living to do.
This has all served to give me a much need wake up call, sadly I didn’t even know I needed one. I can now easily see I did. Don’t allow yourself to fall into that feeling or sense of complacency where you start to take life for granted, be it your own life or that of others. Live life, don’t let it somehow just manage to slip by and away on you. Every single moment that slips by is gone forever. How many think, ah, I have lots of moments left. Letting ong to by is no big deal. Trust me when I say, when you know your moments are limited, suddenly they all, each and everyone of them take on a whole new meaning and importance.
How many moments do I have left? I don’t know. What I do know is that I have this moment and I am going to make the most of it.