Had a few “off” days, ones where I just wasn’t feeling so spry but am now bouncing back to my normal. It is a good thing. Today I go for a Cat Scan of the old brain. The nuero surgon does an annual check to see how much the tumor has grown. I am not really concerned, have been doing this for several years and while, yes, it is growing, it is at a very slow rate. Last time I was told it is about the size of a large walnut, be interesing to see how large it is now.
I have been doing a lot of thinking of late about the blog. It has been interesting to see how in some ways it has almost taken on a life of its own. I see people corresponding with each other through their comments here and I think that is wonderful. People sharing their thoughts to help and support each other again I say, WONDERFUL. I feel truly blessed to have been able to develop an internet relationship with some, for this I am so grateful, I am a lucky man.
Many others have sort of stopped by for a brief period and then quietly moved on with their lives. I hope in that time they felt safe and welcome as many were or are suffering a pending loss or past loss. I pray that all that have moved on, to wonderful happy love filled lives. Well, in fact, I have received many comments from people stating how they have gained or benefited from what has been written here. This blog has been credited with both changing and even saving lives. For me that is so very gratifying. But, I am humble enough to realize that my writings only make up one part of the blog. So much wisdom, insight, love and support is through the wonderfully supportive comments left by YOU.
I am having trouble remembering the saying but it is something like: “Any group is stronger than the sum of its individual members.” I think that perfectly describes what we have here and I am but one individual member of a loving supportive group, here to help all. It is so good to see that at times when I may be absent for a few days, others will take the initiative and jump right in and reply directly to some of the pain filled messages that are some times left. I thank and applaud you for doing that. We have evolved into a loving supportive on line community, a safe haven for any and all. All so wonderful, far beyond my wildest dreams. I am such a lucky man.
It is also wonderful and gratifying to see that even if I am absent for a period, the blog carries on with loving support being available to all. It is so good to see that the blog can continue without me. I am in fact but one part of this wonderful community.
I have thought of changing the name of the blog but have decided not to. I have read comments left by dear blogging friends that say that title is what brought them to the blog and into my life. I wouldn’t want to change that for anything. I am a lucky man.
Here is what I am wondering. As I am but one part of this internet community would the blog have to die with me? I really don’t think so. So much good has been accomplished, why should it have to end? I really hope that doesn’t have to happen. Now understand I am not looking for any sort of on going memorial to “Bill” or anything like that. In fact any reference to Bill could be deleted and I would be OK with that. It is more the loving supportive helping community that I would like to see continue. I ask for your thoughts, ideas or suggestions.