I am feeling a lot better. Anyone that may have read my last post may have realized I was on a rant and not in the best of moods. The vast majority of time, I have reached the point where I just don’t let things bother me. It is just not worth the energy it takes, negative feelings can just suck you dry. Plus, I know a moment gone is gone forever, can never be relived. It is totally up to me as to how I spend those moments. Our moments on this earth are limited and I don’t want to waste any more. So flat out I am not going to. Life is good, look at the big picture and I realize what a lucky man I am.
The vast majority of time, I am not sure but it must be 97-98% of the time I just don’t let things get to me. My thoughts are just thoughts. But they can control my mood, they can control my very life. I am the master of my own mind and I can control my thoughts. Or at least that is the goal I have set for myself as I do know it can be done. I am making progress in getting there.
Now that doesn’t mean that if I come across something in life that I just flat out consider to be wrong, that I am not going to try and do something about it. I just don’t have to let it get me upset while doing it.
I let something as silly as a parking ticket get me in a flap. OK, first off when I say get me in a flap what do I mean? Am I jumping up and down, cursing and yelling, not even close. Outwardly I don’t change at all, no one can see a difference in me. I voice my displeasure in a calm and cool way, which isn’t always good either. Others based on my reactions or actions may not even realize I am upset. Now remember I am talking the very very rare occasions here. Really most things just don’t faze me one way or the other and just pass me by leaving no marks or scars.
BU, there are times when something happens that I see as just being wrong. I see that and I am going to speak up but usually only after I have given myself a little thinking time. There is the saying ” have a quick mind and a slow mouth”. That is a very good thought, how often do we shoot off our mouths in the heat of the moment only to regret much of what is said, a very short time later.
I like to ponder issues, think about them, try to see both sides before I react of speak. Yesterday, I had just got home from the clinic and all was hot in my mind when I made my post. I hadn’t given myself the thinking time. My post reflected the fact I was upset and at the time I was. Give just a short time in my meditation chair, where I so try to understand both sides equally and I am fine. I am not going to let silly little insignificant things spoil the rest of my day.
I thought about it, was no longer upset but still considered it to be wrong. I phoned the hospital to express my concerns about handicap parking and talked to a very nice Lady named Linda. The ticket is being canceled and a review of the location of the handicap parking spots and usage is being done. Thank you Linda.
Huh, I wasted an hour or two feeling negativity. What a waste of precious time.
I am keeping up the work on this sort of thing and while know I am getting better, realize I still have a ways to go