I have realized of late, the more I try to understand this world the more I realize I don’t know. Does that make sense. The more I look at the world the more and more things that I see that just make me go, geesh. But, I do realize that for some reason the things that make me go, geesh, actually make sense to someone out there. I suppose in many situations who am I to judge? I have my thoughts and ideas, others have theirs. I suppose in fact the world would be a pretty boring place if we all thought and even looked alike.
This may sound strange but this whole dying issue has been a wonderful experience for me in many ways. Today, I do see things a whole lot differently than I did just a few years ago. It both saddens and now amazes me as I look around me, read the newspaper, watch TV ect. at peoples reactions to certain things. Now here I am not talking about reactions to crime or war, nothing like that, just reactions to events that happen in our daily lives. Every single person has their own battles to fight, “issues and Problems” to deal with, no one is excluded from this. I remember reading a saying somewhere that went something like this: “No one is promised life will always be easy, we are just promised it can be good.”
In that saying to me the word “can” be good is the most important. There is another saying, something to the effect: “We are all dealt certain card in life, it isn’t as important what those cards are as it is how we play them, how we deal with them”. Now I can just hear a lot of people saying to themselves, my situation is different, my life would be so much better if I didn’t have to put up with………
Well, I don’t know your situation so that may or may not be true.I do know though that everyone is fighting their own private “battles” with life in some way. To them, their battle seems just as serious as yours.
Again I can imagine some thinking, “yeah, yeah, easy for you to say but if you knew what I have to put up with every day, you wouldn’t think or say that.” To that I would respectfully reply, “everyone has their issues, I am a guy that lives daily with the knowledge of a shortened life expectancy, 4 heart attacks, bi-pass surgery, heart failure, angina, brain tumor, epilepy, diabetes, edema, carpal tunnel and periferal neuropathy. So I do have some experience in dealing with life issues of my own.” Yet, still I know there are many that are going through much worse and would trade places with me in a heart beat if given the opportunity.
What is life? It is a whole bunch of moment connected together. As we live each individual moment at that time, that moment can seem to be our life. It is so important to remember we are living a live not a moment. We can’s loose sight of the big picture that really is our life. Never see individual moments as being our life. Recognize them as what they are individual moment that in the big picture is really meaningless.
In my mind I see God weaving a beautiful tapestry that when complete will be the picture of my life. It is exquisitely beautiful, He will present it to me when I do leave this world. It is only then that I will be able to really see that individual events were so insignificant as to not even warrent a single thread in the overall picture.
It is only then that we will be able to see how insignificant most events are in our daily lives. That being the case why get upset about them at the time? All we are doing is depriving ourselves of moment of love and joy. Another saying goes something like, “every moment spent in anger or frustration is a moment of love and joy lost forever”