Dying Man’s Daily Journal – focus on the positive

I am starting to feel a little better at least the breathing is getting easier. My breathing has been so raspy, I am told it can be hear from the next room, hmm. When you have congestive heart failure breathing is an issue to begin with. It is not like you have trouble breathing, it is just you are almost always short of breath. I am sure everyone can relate to one of those chest cold where you feel so congested it is like you just can’t quite get a deep breath. Well put the 2 of them together and you are constantly huffing and puffing. OK, enough whining for today, I have a chest cold, I know, “poor me”.

As I wrote that a thought just came to me. I am a lucky man. Here I am complaining about breathing issues. I think poor me, here I have been fighting this “chest cold” for over a year now. I realize I am letting it drag me down a little. I get feed up with the constant huffing, puffing and wheezing. It seems to almost clear up but then suddenly comes back with a vengance, each time seemingly worst than the last. OK, yes it is getting worse. But, I think in my own mind I am maybe letting it get to me a little more and through that feeling it even more.

I need to give my head a shake and really see things in proper prospective. I am a lucky man. There is no doubt about that. There are so many that have it so very much worse off than do I.

OK, talking to myself: “You are focusing on only one small part of the big picture of your life. Look at the big picture of your life as it is even just today. Yeah, this breathing is frustrating and annoying but really it is a pretty small part of the overall picture. You are still breathing be grateful for that. Fine you can’t walk up a flight of stairs or take a shower without huffing and puffing. Put a positive spin on it, that also means you can’t go out and shovel snow when it is -40, now you have to like that. You are lucky compared to so many, think of those that have been in pain, agony for the past year suffering so much. Here you are feeling sorry for yourself for a little shortness of breath. Shame on you.”

Well I have been sitting here thinking about things for the past 10 or 15 minutes. Actually, that talking to that I gave myself seems to have helped. I am a very blessed and a very lucky man.

I can breathe that in itself is a huge blessing. I have to wonder how many people have ever stopped to thing of that simple fact as being a blessing. How many things are there in our lives that we just automatically take for granted just because it is (or they) are there.

Why is it that perceived negativety can dominate our thoughts so easily? What do I mean by that? We can be traveling down the highway of life on a smooth section, life is good. At times like this do we really stop and think, realize at that time the blessings we have in our lives. The things the people we have in our lives that are making this stretch of the highway so smooth. Or, do we just sail along.

Now by contrast, if we hit a little pothole or bump on the highway of life, does that pothole, problem, issue, oportunity to grow, suddenly get our undivided attention. Suddenly forgotten are all the blessings that make our lives so content just yesterday. They are still there, but seem to be immediately forgotten with all of our attention instead going to the preceived issue we are facing. Suddenly our entire life can seem to be wrapped up in that one issue, the issue of the moment.

Almost always the issue of the moment proves to be just a small bump on the highway. But, when we hit it we allow it to take on monumental proportion in our minds. I ask you, why is it we seem to so easily let the smallest preceived negative issue to suddenly out weigh a world or positives and blessings.

2 Responses to Dying Man’s Daily Journal – focus on the positive

  1. momo83 says:

    It is 12:39 am and I wasn’t able to sleep. While reading “The Christmas Box Miracle” I thought of a couple of great ideas for Christmas gifts. While searching online to buy my boyfriend’s grandfather a memories book to share with the family, I found your blog. That was over 2 hours ago, I’ve been reading your blog, and surfing for gifts, since then. My Gram was diagnosed with congestive heart failure over 2 years ago. She passed last October due to other complications, but reading your thoughts helps me to understand a little bit what she may have gone through. I am hopeful for you, that it’s been four years now. There is obviously a purpose for you and your journal to help so many people. Take Care, God Bless, and have a wonderful Christmas holiday! (Congrats on the new grandchild, also!)

  2. Mel says:


    <– is now humbled after reading what you shared and what momo83 had to say……

    Sometimes I need the double whammie……

    ((((((((((((( Bill ))))))))))))))))

    And thank you, momo83.

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