Dying Man’s Daily Journal – My Year


Feeling a little better today. I guess I had a bit of a reality check a 4 or 5 ago. I have written on occasion about our garage door. It has a mind of its own. Every once in a while the cables jump off the pulleys and the door won’t close. It is no big deal going out to put the cables back on the pulleys. Vi would happily do it, but it is just to high for her to reach and there is a bit of tension on the cables making it a little difficult to difficult for her.

Actually, I think it was Dec. 23rd.. Vi left for last minute shopping and phoned me to say the door wouldn’t close. No big deal I went out, put the cables back on and all was fine. I had noticed we had received about 3 or 4 inches of snow, the really light fluffy kind. As it was so light and fluffy, I decided to shovel the side walk on the way back to the house. Had to stop a couple of times to catch my breath but all seemed fine. Went back in the house just soaked in sweat. It was about 10 minutes later I started getting chest pain. Now I get chest pain all the time and don’t even give it much thought. A couple of sprays from the nitro bottle and I was fine, pain was totally gone. What it seemed to do was zap the energy right out of me and bring on one of the bouts of nausea. I am trying to figure out what triggers this nausea. It seems to just come and go. I can be fine for a couple of weeks maybe a month and suddenly it is on me. It can last a couple of days maybe a week and suddenly it is gone just as quickly as it came. I am going to watch more carefully to see if it is “physical exertion” that brings it on. May, sound strange, but I almost hope that is not the case. Even just a couple of years ago, I would have done that little shoveling and not even given it a second thought. Am just going to have to watch and see.

As seems to always be the case, as we near the end of a year I sit back and think about the year, just past.

I really have had a wonderful year. Granted, there have been a few little bumps in the road, trips to the hospital etc.. After every visit to the hospital, I was always able to walk out, a REALLY good thing. So really that is what all of these medical issues really amounted to little bumps in the road. All of this sort of stuff really only registers as a small blip on the radar.

I had a wonderful year. I have had and taken the time to work on my own spirituality. I feel I have developed a deeper relationship with God. I don’t thing any of my thinking in this area has changed just strengthened. I am so very grateful for this.

I have been able to spend a lot of quality time with family and friends. Vi and I were just talking about it over breakfast and realize we have both lost count or have no idea or the number of overnight guests with whom we have been blessed to share our home with. We agreed it has to be at least 60 people. That is not to say we had 60 different visits as often the visit would have been couples or families. We both actually think the number would be much higher but what is a number. It is that we have been so blessed with company that counts.

Over the year this blog has become increasingly important to me. There have been days when it is the main reason I drag my butt out of bed. Here through the blog I have met so many wonderful people. I have been blessed with so many visits and so many wonderful comments. No one can ever possibly understand how much these kind, caring, loving comments have meant to me. The Good Lord knows when my spirits need a bit of a boost and never lets me down. When I need a lift there is always a comment or an email that gives it to me.

I have always believed in the overall goodness, love and kindness contained in the hearts of people and I mean all people. Spend any time in the blog world and that quickly becomes so very obvious. I believe the Heavenly Father uses each and everyone as an Earth Angel at various points to  sharing love, kindness and compassion. I know this to be true, I have seen it, felt it and been blessed with it right here. Anyone that ever doubts the condition of the world today or the quality of the people living upon it, just needs to spend time in the blog world and faith will be restored, all doubts or questions gone.

It some how seems fitting the way my year is ending. I have been blessed as the recipient of a huge out pouring of love. Both in my “live” world with all the visits from so many and also here in the blog world. How better could a year end than by combining the two.

Occasionally, there have been comments left here by “Someone in Alberta”. We have over time exchange a few emails and to that extent got to know each other a little. Two or three weeks ago I got an email saying she would be passing through Winnipeg through the Christmas season and would like to meet us. That sounded wonderful to both Vi and I. We found she would be staying over night in Winnipeg. We are both thrilled that she accepted our offer of our hospitality and will be spending the night. She will be flying the rest of the way home tomorrow.

We are both excited about actually meeting someone from out there in blog land. If permission is given I hope to post both her name and picture in the next day or so. What a nice way to end an already wonderful year.

9 Responses to Dying Man’s Daily Journal – My Year

  1. I know it’s not often I call in, but its so inspiring to read your posts. Positive is not the word!

    I hope you enjoy your time with a ‘real-life’ blogger! lol

    Best wishes for 2008 Bill x

    Misslionheart, it is nice to hear from you again. Our time with a real life blogger was great, will be posting about it tomorrow.
    All the best to you and yours for 2008
    Bill

  2. Autumn Storm says:

    You sound as though you have used your year well and as such it will be full of wonderful memories to conjure forth time and again. Wish you all the best for 2008!
    Have a wonderful visit with your blogging buddy. I’ve met a few now, flown in from the states to London in several cases, and it has been so much better than I could ever have imagined each time. Like old friends reuniting rather than new friends meeting. 🙂
    Happy New Year!

    Hi Autumn Storm, nice to hear from you as always. We had a great visit with the blogger buddy.
    Happy New Year to you and all the very best in 2008
    Bill

  3. ron says:

    Evening Bill~

    Oh, man…you said it! It amazes me, how much the blog world has added such a “richness” to my life. And you’re talking to someone who DREADED getting online, much less starting a blog a year ago!!! But the journey has lead me to places…I never dreamed I’d go.

    Like you, this has been such a “special” year for me. And so much of it has been about accepting and surrendering to a “Higher Plan” for my life. Like you, I struggle tremendously with my own free-will…and the will of God.

    This year has brought to me, another level of understanding the “delicate balance” of the two….so that they become ONE.

    I’ve also been shown the power of LOVE. And much of that has been from reading your blog. In sharing your discoveries…you have enlightned my own path.

    I hope you don’t mind, but I turned my younger brother on to your blog, last week. Upon reading it for the first time he said, “Wow…what an UP and POSTIVE guy” (meaning YOU). He may never leave you a comment, but please know that he is reading your words, and RECEIVING!

    I’ll be back here again, to wish you a Happy New Year…but until then….it’s a pleasure knowing you, Bill!

    Be well,
    Ron

    Hi Ron, I thank you for your so nice comment. The feelings are shared, it is a pleasure knowing you. I welcome your brother to the site. If he should ever chose to leave a comment I would be happy to read it.
    I am glad you are coming to an understanding about the free will issues. I am getting there but at times still struggle with it, thinking “I” know what is best for me.
    Happy New Year to you and yours.
    Bill

  4. mel says:

    Please forgive me…..

    But what WERE you thinking!? (LOL I feel so much better–though I’m sure Vi had a word or two to say about the shoveling herself…..)

    Yaknow, Bill….one of the greater pleasures for me this year has been the newfound friendships out in the world wide web. I know that we’re more than just words on the screen. I’ve experienced that many times over. I know the impact and the connectedness that can happen when hearts let themselves love freely–when they let others matter to them.
    There’s an inner change that happens every time for me.
    I haven’t quite put my finger on it, and it’s probably not mine to ‘figure out’.
    I just know the ‘rightness’ by feel, the warmth that comes in the connection.

    So, yep. LOL I harped attcha about the shoveling cuz you matter to me.
    And there ain’t nuffin’ you can do about that one. So pffffffttttt! 😛

    (((((((( Bill )))))))))
    Leave the shoveling to the kindly neighbours, eh?
    And know that some dingbat in Iowa thinks the world of ya!

    Be safe, stay well!

    Mel, my friend. You are right about Vi having a few words to say about me shoveling. Sometimes it seems to be hard to recognize and accept decreasing physical abilities.
    I can definitely understand what you are referring to with the connections made here over the web. Is it strange to develop and attachment or to care about someone you have never even met, would almost seem that way. But I also can feel it.
    Happy New Year to you and yours
    Bill

  5. Selma says:

    I’ve only just started reading your blog. You are an absolute inspration. There is an underlying serenity in your writing that leaves me awestruck. Blessings to you…..

    Welcome to my site, I thank you both for the visit and your kind comment. I hope to hear from you again. Blessings to you my friend
    Bill

  6. ceeque says:

    Hi Bill! 🙂 I am glad your blog has made such a difference not only to you but to all of us! It seems this is your mission does`nt it? I think its great, you`re managing to reach so many folk and make new friends … Its great to hear that one of your fellow blogland buddies is stopping by, that should be an interesting experience!
    Leave the snow alone Bill!

    Charles my good friend, so nice to hear from you. This blog has been a true blessing to me, so much more than anyone could imagine. If I can help others while helping myself that really is a win/win situation.
    Happy New Years buddy
    Bill

  7. JewWishes says:

    Bill: Put your hands up, and step away from the shovel, and step away from the snow.

    Not to fear, I have learned my lesson about the snow. Not only have I learned but Vi has threatened me with great bodily harm if I touch a snow shovel again. lol
    Happy New Year
    Bill

  8. Simonne says:

    Hi Bill,
    I’m so glad you had such a good year. Blogland has been a quite the ride for me too the past 6 or 7 months!
    I’m looking forward to reading about your real life blog visit!

    Also, for your info – nausea is connected to the Solar Plexus chakra (about self identity and empowerment) and is about feeling mixed about something because you don’t quite understand it. Maybe next time you feel the nausea, sit in your meditation chair and actually (if you can stand it) really let yourself feel it in your body and then just ask for information about it – see what comes up – just let thoughts and images flow through, try not to hold onto them. Something will probably trigger a response – such as deeper nausea, tears, goose-pimples or the nausea lessening. Write it down and do it again whenever you can. Hope that helps.
    Love ya lots!
    Sxx

    Hi Simonne, I appreciate the info on the chakra. I am going to try it out.
    Happy New Years to you my friend.
    Bill

  9. Hi Bill,
    It is great of you to share your thoughts and feelings with us. I can’t tell you how much you inspire me to live a better life and to cherish the ones I love. Thank you. Happy New Year to you and Vi.
    M

    Martha my dear friend. I thank you so much for your on going support. Happy New Year to you and yours.
    Bill

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