Life is precious, that is a thought that has really been made so clear to me. I don’t just mean mine, which is very precious to me, but I mean every life, of everyone.
I think this has hit home to me even more strongly since my last visit to the hospital. The ER doctor was very very nice, kind and professional. Again, I thank the doctor and the entire staff in the emergency room at Seven Oaks Hospital.
Isn’t it strange how one sentence or one thought expressed in a conversation can jump out and really catch your attention. It is held in our thoughts even when the rest of the conversation can long forgotten. The thought, my mind grabbed onto in my conversation with the doctor. He said: “we both know your condition is not one we can cure, only stabilize”. That one sentence by itself may sound harsh, but it wasn’t when taken in context with the entire conversation. He showed great compassion, caring and concern for my well being.
I realize that one sentence was something I needed to hear, to be reminded of. It is over 3 years now since I first heard the “you are dying” words. Only, once have I been able to get any sort of a time estimate from a doctor and here I am more than a year past that. I really do try to keep my thoughts positive, doesn’t always work but I try. Life in today, thoughts of tomorrow are focused on a long term future. The right attitude can carry you a long way and through a lot.
I really don’t know how many days I have left, but then really none of us do. My goal, my desire, my objective is to really live and appreciate everyone of those days.
Having received this needed reminder from the doctor, I sit back and really take stock of my life. I realize I have allowed myself to some extent to stray from my desired path in life, being the way I focus the positive and live each day to the max.. To put aside, ignore or not even see the little trivial stresses in life. Granted, it is no where near the way I have in the past viewed the world or lived my life. But, to some extent I seem to find myself forgetting and wandering off the path, at times allowing life to get in the way of my living and enjoying it.
I needed that reminder to help me bring things back into proper prospective. There are very, very few things in life that are worth getting upset over. Focus on the big picture of life and suddenly 99.9% of what at the time we consider to be problems suddenly are put into perspective and are seen as mere inconveniences, tiny bumps in the road of life. I look back over my life and am saddened when I realize how many of these little bumps in life, I took to heart, I took personally.
How many times did I allow some little bump in the road, a truly insignificant event to change my mood and rob me of any pleasure or love, that day may have held for me. When I speak of little bumps, I mean little bumps, things absolutely meaningless in the overall picture.
I am talking such little bumps on the road they shouldn’t even register on the radar. But I allowed them to so often register as big bumps on my radar of that particular day. I hope I was an extreme in what I so often did. I even allowed things as trivial as say, a clerk in a store that did not live up to my expectations of politeness or service to spoil my mood, sometimes even spoil my whole day. WHY? Something like a day with a grumpy coworker would almost be certain to bring my mood down. But, really WHY? Just because someone else is having a bad day doesn’t mean I have to allow their mood to change my day. True, being surrounded by negativity in a situation such as with the coworker can make it more difficult to maintain your mood but it can be done. Their mood their problems only become ours if we allow it. So many times I allowed the mood or actions of others to directly affect me in a negative way. I had a choice, I didn’t have to mentally allow this, but I did. WHY? How much enjoyment in life did I allow others to rob me of, and WHY?
I see so many others in life doing the very same thing. WHY? At times I would just like to give them a shake and say smarten up.
There is a very wonderful statement that goes something to the effect. The past is but a memory, the future but a dream. What we really have is the present and it is called the “present” because it is a gift from God.
This is so very true and important to always remember. Don’t waste you time fretting about the past or worrying about the future. Live your life in the present. The key words are LIVE YOUR LIFE and don’t waste it. A single moment of negativity is a moment lost forever. You can’t get it back, it is gone, wasted forever. I have to ask myself how many of these precious moments did I waste. For me, I realize, so often these moments stretched into minutes…hours…days…weeks or even years. So much precious time wasted on really nothing or at least on nothing that mattered.
I needed to hear the doctors reminder.