Dying Man’s Daily Journal –

Really, slept in today, it was after 9:00 when I got up. I can’t remember when was the last time I did that. Yesterday was a pretty good day, felt good for most of the day and even got in my 5 hours of nap time, that is combined between morning and afternoon naps. Considering the amount of sleep I get, I always still feel tired. Zero energy and very lethargic. Doctor tells me that is just a normal symtom of the heart failure.
Today, have already thrown up once and am continually on the verge of doing it again. Today is one of my zombie days, very heavy thick head. I think it is this sensation in my head that gets to my stomach. I have a constant ringing in my ears, it is actually more electronic buzzing sound. Some days louder than others, usually I can just ignor it and it doesn’t really bother me.

Vi’s good friend Tiina came over for the evening. Vi put her to work. They did an amazing job at painting flowers on to the glass of an old mirror we have. It is a big circular mirror, that over time has somehow develped a few blemishes. These small blemishes seem to be behind the glass. Remedy, use the mirror similiar to a painters canvas. In a very organized pattern paint flowers covering the blemishes. Really, looks good. It is the final decorative touch to the bedroom Vi has been redoing.

I started a second blog yesterday. Very frustrating, but I think I got it done. Frustrating for me but I am sure quite simple. I seem to be having more and more difficulty in grasping or understanding instructions. Oh, well.

I called it, a place to grieve. I realized while typing a couple of my last postings, how individual and personalized grieve is. I have found journalling to be a great comfort, a real benefit. Journalling, is not something everyone has the time to do or even wants to do on a regular basis. My thought is to provide a safe place in which in which anyone can tell their story. Let out or express their personal grief. This can certainly be done now, by leaving comments on the blogs of others. Leaving these comments so valued and treasured by the blogger, we are to some extent addressing the individual issues of the original writer. All of which are of so much benefit and appreciated by the blogger and please continue to leave them. However, is it really a forum for most commenters to address their own feelings or more to provide much needed support for the writer?

I don’t know, it is just an idea I had. Give everyone the chance to tell their own personal story of even just vent. I encourage all to give it a try, you may be surprised how much better you can feel by just writing down and getting out the feelings and emotions.