Had an appointment with my family doctor yesterday. We both (Vi and I) always seem to come away from those appointments filled with feelings of doom and gloom. This is the same doctor that told me a few months back that I had days, maybe weeks but not months left.
Yesterday, we discussed my up coming surgery being in 6 to 8 weeks. He added that the surgery would be only if I was still alive. That sort of stopped me in my tracks, like of course it will only be if I am still alive. I am REALLY sure it would be canceled if I had indeed already passed. Through out the appointment he threw in that “if you are still alive” thing 3 or 4 times.
It reached the point I had to confront him about it, “why do you have to keep stating the obvious?” His response: “to keep the discussion realistic”. He just doesn’t think I have that long.
It was so very hard on Vi hearing it again and again
Yesterday was the last of the needles to the stomach. It was the hardest day to stop the bleeding from the poke site. I got a bit of a chuckle a few days back a friend, well intentioned and we laughed together about it, suggested, why don’t you just put a bandage over it to if into stop at least contain the bleeding. My laugh came from me thinking and saying: “oh,gee why didn’t I think of that”? I told him I was going to post on this as if he had this thought possibly others did also.
my blood is now very thin, flowing with a consistancy, I suppose more like water than blood. The ability of the blood to clot is reduced, don’t want any clots in those tiny heart arteries of mine. It needs though to be able to clot to stop any bleeding.
Mostly it has been similar to when you donate blood. After you just hold gauze to the puncture for a minute or so and you are good to go. Same here, it is just pressure was required for a little longer. But, it stops, on goes the bandage.
Now I did try to remember to check it. A couple of times it was fine, other times it was blood soaked, other times I would forget to check until I could feel blood running down my stomach, clean it up and start the process over. Each time with length of time the pressure was applied was increased. That cycle went on all day.
Was this in anyway serious, life threatening or anything like that. No, just messy and annoying.
I am finished with those needles at least for now.
Off to see the family doc this morning. It will be the first time seeing since a lot of all of this has happened.
Thank you to all for the continued support.
I am writing this post as I have several others on the IPod. This is great, I don’t have to tackle those stairs to the PC. I have realized this thing auto corrects. I noticed a couple of times the correction wasn’t to what I was saying or meaning. You might have to guess at some of what I was trying to say. Lol
I do thank all for all the support and prayers. I am home a little bruised and battered but am doing well. Everything went pretty much as expected. An angioplasty was preformed with a stent implanted clearing one blockage. Also as expected the doctor was unable to do anything with the other blockage, the artery is 100% blocked. He though did say he believes he can clear it in a longer more complicated procedure. Now that is good news for sure. I will be advised of dates in the near future by expect it mid to late June.
I had always been of the thought that a total blockage resulted in an immediate heart attack, not necessarily so. Each of the larger arteries have a lot of much smaller arteries running off of them. There are times when these smaller arteries wander off and ultimately rejoin the main artery at a point down the line. This is my case those tiny even minuscule arteries are what are keeping me going as they on their own actually by pass the blockage. To me this is amazing. While not a permanent solution, will I hope continue to do the job until the proper measures can be taken